neurotism

moving on

2006-10-31T03:08:00.000-08:00

ooh well.I'm moving blogs.I'm keeping this cos there are memories here that i wanna keep.so yea.but you,whichever kind soul reads this, can find me at http://raceforperfection.blogspot.com .

but its really very simple and all cos i just wanted things to be very simple and not complicate with designs and everything so yea.with that i bid you farewell.

2006-10-14T19:56:00.000-07:00

Kudos to Safith for doing this plastic cover sheet of our class.

Charles trapping Nicholas.A common occurence in 4e6.

Nicholas after the ordeal.

Well..ok...this is my first time uploading pics.Feels nice.-.-

Post-graduation

2006-10-14T10:09:00.000-07:00

Ahh graduation.The penultimate event before the Os.I'm glad we've graduated.But then again I'm not.I finally understand what our seniors and teachers and everyone saying that you can never get back your secondary school
life and we shld enjoy our friend's company.Sec 1 to 2 was the formative years of my 4 years in St Gabriels.I was the new kid in a new school.Not knowing everyone at all.I remember going to school on the first and feeling super lost.I mean here I am standing alone.And all I see are other people talking to each other.So I really have fond memories of my lower secondary class.And I'd like to say sorry to Mark for all the things I've said.All the rather crude remarks.

Although 1e2 and 2e2 was a good time in my life,3e6 and 4e6 were even better.Something I thought wouldn't happen.To be honest I was kinda bummed about going to e6 cause it was the last class in the express level.But I realised it is because of the subjects we took that the school formed a new class and that was ours.Sec3 was great.Making more friends,getting to know more people.I really have nothing but good memories of sec3.There were ups and downs,but nothing that wasn't part of life.

Sec 4 was even better.We bonded much more as a class.It seemed as though every group or clique of friends in 4e6 were able to bond and mix with each other well enough.I cant do justice of just how glad I am to have made friends with so many people that I think are really great.I'm glad that I'm leaving St Gabriels because it's like the time has come for us to venture out and find out what life has install for us.I'm sad that we're leaving because.I spent four magnificent years here.The fun the laughter everything.I feel secondary school has made me a better person in many aspects.And I'll really miss my friends.

To end graduation day on a sour note was really not what I wanted but some jackass dipshit(and this term is already very mild compared to the things I can say about him) didnt want to help me buy movie tickets to watch a movie with my friends.Well you know what...he can go get fucked and die.

9/10/06

2006-10-09T21:03:00.000-07:00

crap crap crap crap. In about a month's time,the world is gonna end.I'm serious.well k maybe for people like me who are taking the Os and still seem so unprepared for it.I really screwed up for my prelims.How the fuck am I gonna go for the JC trial thing.Hmmm will any JC take me in with 23 points?Didn't think so.Argh.

I'm feeling super bothered today.Especially after going to the damned moblie dental clinic.I found out that I've gotta extract my wisdom tooth.or teeth.whatever.I might have to go for surgery for it because its coming out from my jawline.you know that part the connects your cheek bone to your jaw.at the bottom.yea.thats part.i curse the day I have to go for the operation.Only good thing I can see from this is that I won't suffer the pain and that I can get a 5 day mc.So im thinking maybe during army.then go for the op and pon 5 days.must make sure i go on a weekend and use the 5 days for the weekday.heh.

Well other then that major news(not that major to you people but to me k.blasted tooth) there hasnt really been much.Vivocity's been open and the guys are thinking of going there to study.I feel so...so unprepared.I feel like I know pretty much everything quite ok.then i look at a school's paper and im like" shit wtf how the hell do i do this damned question?" ok maybe not so much cussing and swearing.but the shock is still there.

Graduation's coming up.Its this Friday, 13th Oct. 6pm i think.Can't believe I'm leaving SGSS.well k maybe I can.I wanna leave.No offence.But 4 years in an all guys school is too much for me.esp. after 6 years in ATS.Why didn't they build ATS secondary?I would have gone there.But heck,I don't regret going to SGSS.I've come out with new friends.Great friends.And I've had fun times.Like 2005 China trip.bonded with the guys well.Had a swell time.

Bleagh.I'm just rubbishing now.Guess I'm off to do more work.

Ciao.

Para La Libertad( For Freedom)

29/9/06

2006-09-29T19:00:00.000-07:00

Dammit,Another 2 weeks of school and then I've "graduated".Sucks.You know how when you're like sec1 to 3 and you're always complaining that school's just too long?Now I feel like its too damn short.O levels are coming!Panic attack on the go!On the 14th of Oct, I'd have techincally finished sec 4..I think I'm gonna miss the class.Sure I dislike some people in it but overall I like the class.Ranks up there with 6G '02 at ats and e2 '04 at sgss.In e6 though...its like very friendly between the different groups of people.I usually hang out with Ronald,Harrison,Luke etc. but I think I'm rather on ok terms with people like Kenneth,Nicholas,Saf,Joey that group,Elvin,Dino,Lucas,Xavier that bunch and Arrun,Saravanath,Pirakash,Sanmugan all these.So I feel yea...class atmosphere isnt really that bad.

I've been rather off these past week.I've been getting really tired easily.I used to play soccer for long periods of time without any problems.But now?!I come back home,I rest a while,take a shower and then use the com.And I fall asleep at the bloody com!I mean its like one minute I'm happily surfing through soccernet and stuff and the next thing I know,I'm lying back in my chair sleeping for about 10-20 mins before waking up and realising that I feel asleep.And its happened twice already.Oh yea.wanna know what prompted me blogging this?Me falling asleep at the com again!Sheesh.And I didnt even do anything tiring today but go to school.Hmmm.maybe thats the problem.

Been feeling abit...bleagh too..Having done my prelims I'm rather slack now.And its the worse time for it!I mean the Os are like....about a month away!I really need to start studying.Speaking of prelims,I'm kinda...disappointed with myself.Did rather poorly then what I'd had expected of myself.Gotta push for the Os.Dang it,I'm just not in the mood.-.-

Also,I'm kinda...messed up personally.Alot's been happening in the past year and I guess its catching up on me.I'd like to say I've matured?But somehow I don't really think so.Yea my views on many things have changed but I'm still more or less where I was a year ago.That sucks.I'm 16 now.I should be like....talking politics and beng more concerned about world news.Ah politics schmolitics.Who needs politics when you can have pish-poshing fun.

Harrison's bday party really opened my eye a little bit.Felt that my life was rather dull.It's still dull.But I wanna change that.I wanna have fun.Go play around(in a nice inoocent way mind you)(well,ok maybe not THAT innocent,but innocent enough) and enjoy my life while I can.Meet new people make new friends.I wanna drink again.Not get drunk though.Slightly tipsy is fine but not over the top vomit-at-two-mrt stations-getting-majorly-hungover kinda drunk.

I digress.Seriously though,I just want to have abit of excitement in my life.Its getting stale.Everyday's like a routine and I'm sick of it.Deep down I'm a little shaken up(not in a bad way) cause of some things that I didn't could have ever in a million years think would happen.But it did.So I'm a little in between places right now.

On a happier note,I got an original Liverpool jersey last month I think.Or was it this?Don't know don't care.What matters is that I've got it.Gerrard's name and number and all.Way cool.I can't bear to wear it sometimes.It's so nice.It deserves to be framed and mounted in my room on my wall.

Oh yea.Decision time's coming.Poly or JC?by the looks of my prelims scores,its gonna be ITE.Thats how bad it is.I dunno.I had plans to go AJC,SAJC or CJC.If I were to go to poly,I would want to take up Mass Comm. or Sports and Leisure Management.But its hard.Gotta push myself really hard in order to achieve it.Urgh.I do not want to work hard!Sigh.Oh well.

Speaking of decisions,Decisions is up and running on www.fanfiction.net .Its my first fanfic so bear with me.Although I doubt anyone would read it,just pop down,take a look,leave a review.Cheers.

Ah.Its like.7 now.I gotta go eat and then get ready to go for tuition.I'm stuck with 3 tuitions in 3 days.Bloody boring.Oh yea.There's this gig I wanna go to tmr.But I'm not sure if I shld.Once again,decisions decisions.Oh-bloody-fantastic.

Alright,I'm off.

-dric signing off.

24/9/06

2006-09-24T11:03:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was a great day.It was Harrison's bday celebration yesterday and a few of us went to escape theme park first.Went to a couple of rides and had a blast.Stayed till about 6++ before we headed to pasir ris beach for the bbq.

So we waited for Harrison's parents to drop off the food and by the time we brought it to the pit it was close to 8++.Big thanks to Kenneth for starting up the fire to the bbq.After that we had to cut the cake first as it was an ice-cream cake and it was melting.So after everything,Alethea and I helped to cut the cake and pass around.I ended up not getting any cos it was too little and there were like 20 of us.But I din really mind so yea...

After bbq and just slacking around,Nicholas and Kenneth started the entertainment with their 91.3 performance and made the group crack up for quite a long while.Time flew by so fast that it was 11 and we had to decide how we would go home.Thanks to San for offering to send Kah Meng and I to Toa Payoh to take a cab home later.But a big shout out to Chloe for offering to send me home cos its in Bishan and everything.So yea,really thankful.

Thats about it...I know it doesnt seem like much...but I had a blast

30/8/06--7 months on

2006-08-30T23:59:00.000-07:00

I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph; I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
Cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel light when you're gone away

I know it seems kinda whiny when I type stuff like that..but its true.Its the way I feel.

It's been 7 months.212 days.5088 hours.305280 minutes.Not that I'm counting or anything.

I miss you...I really do..

ahjuN signing off..

23/07/06

2006-07-23T00:27:00.000-07:00

Here without You

Well...I didnt really expect to blog today but considering I'm just so bored, so here I am.Hahah.

So I went out today after tuition.I wanted to go watch Trella jam at Wake Me Up studios but apparently there is very little space and therefore we(Me,Luke,Bryan,Ronald) couldn't go.How sad.Oh well another time then.So while they were off jamming,we went to Meridien to play pool at Monstercue.Damn today I was on a roll I tell you.4 straight wins.Then I lost to Luke.Damn.Hahaha.

After that went to watch Nacho Libre at The Cathy.Its qutie nice The Cathy.Loads of shops not open yet but quite a few are up and running such as Starbucks.(Thats another one out now.Geez,I think Starbucks wants to take over the world or something),Ben & Jerry's and this really cool surfwear shop called.....Buttcheeks.How cool is that?Hahaha.Buttcheeks.Whoever thought that out...is a genius.Hahah.

I remember that I had a purpose blogging today.I jsut can't seem to remember it now.Oh well.

Oh yea,a few shoutout to people who are turning 16 in the next month.
Happy 16th to Ginette,Ronald and Priscilla.If I've missed out anyone(though I seriously doubt anyone reads this),sorry loads yea.

Till next time,Ciao.

Cedric signing off.

10/7/06

2006-07-10T18:20:00.000-07:00

First off,I'd like to congratulate Italy for winning the World Cup in 2006.They were consistent throughout the tournament and grew from strength to strength although I still believe Australia were robbed by them in the dying moments in Round of 16.

This World Cup had so many highs and so many lows.

The high points included Ronaldo breaking Gerd Muller's World Cup record of 14 goals when the Brazilian scored agains Japan and Ghana.There were also new young faces on the international scene that I hope will appear as South Africa 2010.Players like Podolski,Lahm,Tevez,Messi should hopefully step up and set the world alight.Besides the two aforementioned Germans,the others did not really make the mark and were largely disappointing.Last but not least,who could forget Singapore's footballing pride when Shamsul Maidin officiated not 1 not 2 but 3matches and was the 4th official for another.

The lowest point of the tournament no doubt goes Zidane's insane headbutt against Materazzi in the Final.What was he thinking honestly?
There was also the controversial match between Portugal and the Netherlands in which 16 yellow cards were shown,resulting in Deco,Costinha,Giovanni van bronckhorst and Khalid Boulahrouz being sent off.Not forgetting Graham Poll's big big mistake in showing Josep Simunic 3 yellow cards before sending him off.

All in all though,Germany 06 was a success.Entertaining matches here and there and the standards of play was good.Only sad thing?Diving and play acting are still very match prominent in the games.FIFA may have coped with doping but must now move on to stamping out such unsportsmanlike behaviour.

As I predicted,Podolski was named Young Player of the tournament.He,alongside Cristiano Ronaldo,Cesc Fabregas,Lionel Messi, were nominated.However,C.Ronaldo's unsporting behaviour cost him fairplay points and thus Podolski,with 3 goals to his name, was rightfully awarded the trophy.

As for Player of the tournament,it has to be without doubt Italy's winning captain,Fabio Cannavaro.He was solid throughout all 7 games in Germany and should deservedly walk away with the award.

On a more personal note,oh man!today as the class was making our way to the Physics lab,we walked past this female trainee teacher(I think) and I caught a whiff of this smell.It was her smell!I'm not referring to the teacher but her. Man,it was such a blast.I never expected to have been able to catch that scent again but I did.And I miss it so much.

Geez everyone must think I'm a stalker or mentally ill or something but I assure you I'm not.

Anyway thats about it for today.Ciao.

I only think about her, must get to her, cannot lose her.-F.C.P.R.E.M.I.X(Fall of Troy)

ceecee signing off

Back from the dead

2006-07-03T00:16:00.000-07:00

WHOA!its been more than 2 months since i last came here.Almost forgot my password and such.Geez.Sorta got inspired to blog again when i was blog surfing through the blogs of Harrison,Joey,Saf,Bong,Geraldine and LadyLala.So its like..yea...start blogging again.I don't think I'll start blogging as regularly as in the past.Maybe if some major thing happens then I will,if not..don't expect loads and loads of updates.

So I have no idea where to start.Let's start with the World Cup.Shocker of the century: England going out of a major competition by penalties!Well ok not that shocking considering their record with penalties.1990 WC:out through pens.1998 WC:out through pens.2004 EC:out through pens.I mean honestly...i think that record is almost as bad as Northern Ireland's old record of not scoring a goal AT ALL in almost 2 years of international matches.and that's including qualifying matches for international tournaments so you can really imagine how bad that record is.
And what's up with Sven-Scolari matches?Is Sven really that poor against Scolari.Its 3 matches,3 losses.1 Brazil,2 Portugal.Geez.And don't get me started on his tactics.Hargreaves may have played well against the Portu-geezers but I mean come on..how did he go from fringe England player to suddenly influential rightback against Ecuador?Doesnt make any sense to me.Not only that,but he drops Carra?
On that note,I'm sad.Can't believe Carra and Gerrard failed to convert their pens.Thought Gerrard would have.Carra....didn't really expect him to considering his last penalties were in 2001 in teh Worthington Cup games.

So its Germany-Italy and France-Portugal in the semis.I'm thinking it'll be a Germany-France final.Damn that's gonna be interesting to catch.
My player of the tournament:Miroslav Klose.I watched him in 2002 during Korea/Japan and he impressed with his heading abilites.Many people said that he was a 1-dimensional player who could only score headers but this time in Germany he shoved those critics back into their seats with well taken goals and has set up goals for Podolski.
My young player of the tournament would be Lukas Podolski.Much was expected of the likes of Messi,Tevez,Rooney,Walcott etc etc.But Messi failed to impress besides the Argie-S&M and Argie-Holland games.Tevez likewise.Rooney's case wasn't helped by injuries and poor teamwork from his teammates while Walcott didn't even get to play.Podolski didn't get off to a good start but got into stride as rthe tournament progressed.2 good goals against Sweden has pushed his name further into the limelight and secured him a 10mill pound move to Bayern.So Podolski is the man to watch in the future.

Enough on World Cup,moving on to Liverpool.Confirmed the signing of Craig Bellamy.I think for 6.5mill pounds its worth it.He's a speedy striker who knows where the goal is.A little worried about his temperament but hopefully Rafa can bring out the best in Craig and he does a good job up front.
One thing I'm wondering is what's up with Rafa's fascination with the left flank!I mean Traore,Zenden,Kewell,Warnock and Riise can all play there...and yet Rafa has signed up Gonzalez and Palletta.Closing an eye to the fact that Gonzalez is equally apt on the right flank and Palletta is young and can shift inside,there are reports that Fabio Aurelio is gonna sign a 4 yr deal.Thats another leftback into the squad.What about the right?I hope Joaquin moves to Anfield.He impressed in the match against Saudi Arabia for Spain.There are also reports that Daniel Alves might be coming over at all and that Dirk Kuyt's move is all but sealed...but based on his performances for the Oranje,I don't think he is that good a player and would much rather prefer having David Villa on Merseyside.

Moving on from soccer,school has started.My god...its a drag.3 days ending late with 1 day ending early but having to stay back for 1 and half hours to have a mock POA exam.Geez.And its only another 2 months to Prelims.Damn does time fly.Really need to find the motivation to start going through intensive revision on top of my current one.Argh.Can't wait till end of Os.I tell you..I'm gonna go nuts.Booze and fun all around people yea!Hahaha.

Its like 1214 in the morning and I'm still awake.Thanks to Youth Day holidays.So people,go have fun for one last time before we all start mugging our asses off in order to go a good JC/Poly.

I think thats it from me..I thought I'd had more to say..but seems it was mostly soccer.Well cheerio people.

-Kick back,relax and jump off a building-

--ceecee signing off--

Hillsborough

2006-04-15T23:50:00.000-07:00

17 years ago,96 fans lost their lifes in Hillsborough,Sheffield.

Today,this post is dedicated to them.This horrific incident can be ranked as bad as the Heysel disaster suffered almost 4 years preceding this.The loss of the these 96 people is truly a tragic event.

I urge you to just spare a few minutes of your time to just read what Dalglish has to say...

Kenny Dalglish,then manager of Liverpool, never really seemed to recover from witnessing the loss of life...the loss of life of people who held the Merseyside club in high regards.Here is what he had to say when interviewed by www.liverpoolfc.tv on his reflection of that fateful day:
HILLSBOROUGH WILL STAY WITH ME FOREVER Kenny Dalglish

I find it very difficult to write about Hillsborough, where terrible mistakes by the authorities, both police and football, ended with 96 of our supporters dead. The memory will remain with me for the rest of my life. I was offered the manager's job at Sheffield Wednesday after I left Liverpool but I couldn't take it because of what had happened at Hillsborough. The person who offered me the job said: 'I never thought of that.' But I can never be in the stadium without thinking of all those people who died on the Leppings Lane terraces.

In mourning the victims during the heartbreaking, endless succession of funerals and ever since, my emotions have been coloured by a feeling of complete frustration. Liverpool had played in an FA Cup semi-final against Nottingham Forest at Hillsborough the year before and there had been no reported problems. The organisation was superb. The fans had to come through a barrier 500 yards away from the ground where they had to show their tickets. That wasn't the case on 15 April 1989.

A different team was in charge and the stewarding had changed. Why wasn't the procedure repeated from the previous year? If it was repeated, why did it fail? If it had been run exactly the same as the year before, those 96 people might have been alive today and there wouldn't be family after family across Merseyside struggling to live with the memory of a lost loved one.

It was obvious that Liverpool supporters should have been given Hillsborough's Kop. The smaller Leppings Lane end was clearly unsuitable. Apparently the police said it was better for the Nottingham Forest fans to come at the Kop end of Hillsborough. To be fair to the police, our fans had stood at the Leppings Lane end the year before, without any problem. There was enough room in the ground for our fans. Liverpool had the whole stand next to the Leppings Lane end but this added to the problem. Liverpool fans with tickets to that area had to enter through the Leppings Lane turnstiles.

The previous year there had been no motorway roadworks. The police knew how many supporters were expected. With so many not inside, they must have realised many of them had been delayed on the journey to Sheffield. The police must have known about the hold-ups on the motorway. When I took the players back to Sheffield to the hospitals on the Monday we were ferried through by Liverpool police, then handed over to the Manchester police, passed on to the North Yorkshire constabulary and finally South Yorkshire police. All the police forces collaborated. Surely one force could have told another that there were problems on the motorway and that they should put the kick-off time back? It wouldn't have been the first semi-final to be delayed in football history. It will always anger me that they didn't wait for the fans. There were all these people arriving late, desperate to get inside Hillsborough so as not to miss any of the game. Having so many hundreds of people rushing into the ground caused the terrifying crush which squeezed the life out of 96 poor Liverpool supporters.

We went out on to the pitch, the players warmed up, and I settled back to watch the game. I never noticed any problems. Suddenly a policeman ran on to the pitch and talked to the referee, Ray Lewis, who stopped the game. Lewis sent the teams back into the dressing-rooms and told us to wait for news. Nobody knew the scale of the disaster. I ordered the players to stay inside and went out into the corridor. A few fans had gathered there. They called out to me: 'Kenny, Kenny, there are people dying out there.'

News of the horror filtered through. People who had been outside began to give a hint of the unfolding disaster. Like any man, my first reaction was to check my family was all right. I went up to see Marina and Kelly, who had been in the directors; box. My son Paul wasn't with them because he always went to cup games with Roy Evans's son, Stephen, and another friend, Alan Brown. It was a happy ritual for them, having lunch together and then going off to the match, like hundreds of thousands of young lads every weekend. I went out to see if I could find them. Imagine my relief to see Paul walking across the pitch. He could easily have been in the Leppings Lane end because, although his ticket was in the other stand, he had to go through the Leppings Lane turnstiles to get there. If Paul hadn't arrived at Hillsborough early he could just as easily have been in that area where all the fatalities occurred. I was overjoyed to see him. I took him immediately to Marina, who was so relieved.

The police asked Brian Clough and me to make an announcement. We walked through Hillsborough's kitchens where a radio was giving out some football scores. It was weird. They just didn't matter. We went up to the police box at the corner of the Leppings Lane end and tried to broadcast a message but the microphone wasn't working. There were two guys on the Leppings Lane end waving to us, indicating that they could not hear. So the police suggested we continue up to the DJ's booth and use his announcing equipment. I went upstairs but Cloughie didn't. Cloughie just turned and went back. He never made any announcement to the fans. Only me. Why he didn't come up to address the fans, I don't know. That was his decision. I don't think I saw Cloughie again that day. Forest left quite quickly.

I continued up to the DJ's box to make the announcement as the police requested. I told the supporters to remain calm, that there had been an accident. I told them that the way they were conducting themselves was magnificent, the help they had been giving the emergency services was equally fantastic. 'Please remain calm,' I kept saying. And they were. The punters were brilliant.

Cloughie had a moan about me in his book. After we had beaten Forest when the semi-final was eventually played at Old Trafford, I commented that there was one team who wanted to win more than the other. For our fans' sake, Liverpool desired victory more than Forest. That was to be expected. Cloughe admitted that was true but that I didn't need to say it. There was no logic in Cloughie's comments. I wasn't being derogatory to his Forest players. Because of Hillsborough, it meant a lot more to us to win it than it did to Forest. Then Forest came to Anfield to play us in the League on 10 May. Cloughie was unbelievably negative, playing with 10 men behind the ball who never moved, a wee bit pathetic really. We still won 1-0.

When we realised that people were dying at the Leppings Lane end, the Forest fans behaved superbly. They were a real credit to their club. A few Liverpool guys ran towards the Forest end, some aggressively, some simply to get away from the carnage at the front of the Leppings Lane. My immediate reaction had been that there was crowd trouble in the Leppings Lane, that Forest fans had got in there to cause hassle. Many people thought that. Once people realised that the problem was congestion, the attitude of those running at the Forest fans changed. There could have been a full-scale riot if the Forest supporters on the Kop had reacted to the angry Liverpool supporters charging at them. The disaster was bad enough but if could have been even worse if the Forest fans had thought the Liverpool fans were trying to get to them. To their eternal credit, the Forest fans showed restraint. For their conduct at Hillsborough, Forest's supporters will always have a special place in my affections.

It soon became apparent that what was going on at the Leppings Lane end wasn't crowd trouble but a major disaster. Liverpool fans were ripping down advertising boards to use as stretchers, trying to help people on the pitch, trying to lift people out from that terrifying crush. There was very little the stewards and police could otten. Hillsborough, and the ensuing Taylor Report, definitely changed the atmosphere of grounds. With smaller capacities, no one standing and a wealthier audience, grounds have become quieter. The Kop has definitely changed, atmospherically. Each ground changes, when they re-build a stand. Clubs should set aside an area for those who cannot afford season-tickets but want to go whenever they have enough cash. Poorer fans should not be discouraged. We should never forget the wee boy in the street whose father cannot afford to take him. One has to be mindful of the fans of the future.

I have been at three matches, as a spectator, player and manager, where they have been disasters - at Ibrox, Heysel and Hillsborough. Although not directly involved, with the number of matches I have been at, the chances of it happening to me or somebody in my own family are probably well above average. I feel fortunate that it wasn't me or one of my kids. Parents will always be protective even when their children become adults. That's human nature.

In the aftermath of Hillsborough, I appreciated my family even more. Marina says that at times I was difficult to live with, that I was clearly under strain. I didn't realise at the time. Tom Saunders told Marina that he was going to keep an eye on me, but he always did anyway. I do not know how tense I was being at home. Without my being aware of it, the strain of Hillsborough was beginning to catch up with me.

So..please....treasure life...and let us all remember those who lost their lifes...so tragically.

You'll Never Walk Alone

9/3/06

2006-03-09T22:26:00.000-08:00

I never thought that this could ever happen.

I've lost faith in everything.

My life.My studies.My love.Soccer.My friends.

Don't get me wrong.I like my friends and I don't think there's anything wrong.Just that....I've lost faith in them.Somehow I feel they will never understand what I'm going through.They may be going through worse things than me but still...I've lost the belief that friends will be there for me when I need them the most.It feels go to be alone sometimes.Cut off from everyone.Wish I could do that.But I know I can't.But still...I think Mr Tay was right.....We all need to learn to be "lone wolf" this year.Don't be too close to your friends at this crucial point in time.

I've lost faith in my studies....Oh how the mighty have fallen.I used to do well in my Lit.But now?I just scraped a 14/25 for my test recently..I lost my faith...just like that.I feel like Im never going to achieve my dreams..I wanna go into football coaching.Thats my dream job...May suck to many...But that is what I want to do.I love soccer.But now,I've lost my faith in that too.I don't feel that same passion anymore.The passion to win and play well.I simply don't care anymore..

I really never thought this day would have come....when I stop my life at this point in time...where I stop moving on..My life stops here....mentally.Physically I will go on.It will just be a facade.Nothing more...Nothing under the exterior lie of happiness and joyThe person inside me is dead.

Fare thee well good world.

2006-03-05T10:47:00.000-08:00

hey hey!im back to blog!I mean its time I did cos I had a blast of a time ytd at Bryan's house for his bday party!Wooo!!

So well I and Harrison made our way there and reached there arnd 2+.After that we(Bryan,Ron,Luke,Harrison,San,Cheng Yang and I) made our way to Suriya for lunch.Then after that Cheng Yang left before we back and watched Dukes Of Hazzard.The subtitles was so screwed up sia.Didnt match the words being said at all.

Once the movie ended,I came with up with the idea of giving Bryan a bday taupok.Somehow he knew but in the end we still did it!Yes!!!Wahahaha.Then after several taupoks on Ron,Harrison and San,we decided to mosh a bit.But our moshing was so so puny compared to Mossie,Saf,Joey,Terence,Bong and K.Chia's moshing.

So after that...it was like...everyone suspiciousof each other.I knew that they wanted tp taupok me..but hah...i managed to evade their plans.Then after that everything was pretty tame.

Then called Joel Tan,Glen and Jerry to come down.Ate dinner.Some of the guys played Fatal Frame in the dark then after that went to cut bday cake.The damn chocolate cake was sinful.So so gd!After that we then left to go home.This is just the brief summary.It was much more fun than what Ive said.Maybe u take a look at Harrison's blog to get a better view.

oh ya..did I mention that everyone of us were decked in black or dark coloured shirts?and San was the only one among us dressed in a white shirt.How ironic is that?

15/2/06

2006-02-15T21:20:00.000-08:00

I'm back....heh.not that i've been gone or anything.just felt a hiatus from blogging was needed....after everything.

so its been abt half a month now...coming along well.Studies still bordering failure but overall,i'm quite happy with my studies.Think I'm gonna fail Comb. Sci though.Not fully grasping Chem and Physics.Well,what can i say?Life's been good.Peaceful.Picking up my life from where I last left it.Moving on slowly....painfully at times.

Sometimes I watch shows,videos(music videos ar) and reading stories.I see how the pple seem to just leave their lifes behind so easily.And honestly,part of me wishes I could do that....leave everything here.Move off to England,US or Australia.Maybe even France.Just leave everything here and get on with living how I wanted to live my life.Alone.Make new friends,make new enemies etc etc.But I realise...I'm afraid of living my life alone.I hate the idea of being alone in the future.It just bugs me at times that that could very easily be the future for me.And I wish that doesnt happen..

Wo yao de zhi shi ni zai wo sheng bian....
I have no idea how many times this line keeps popping into my head all these days.It was a sentence...that held so much for me.The care,the concern,the knowledge of your existence.It's a reminder of what was brought into my life.It was an experience of some sort I guess.But I never wanted that experience to be over.Never once.But you felt it was the greater good.That this is the path that our lives will take.In hindsight,I agree.Maybe this is the best for us.For you.For me.For you to be free of someone caring for you from afar.No worries about outside your studies.

And for me,it aws an oppurtunity to go back to the life I've become so accustomed to.Not having to rush off after school to get ready to go and meet,no worries about what's going on in someone else's life.But then again,I miss it.I miss finding out how you broke down that day.And of why you did so.I still remember you holding it back from me.How did you think I felt when I realised I wasn't there?That instead,someone else was comforting you?You said the next day that you weren't sure you should have called.You were afraid that you would rant at me.But I wish you could see....that I wanted for you to rant at me.So at least I would know what's going on.And that you would trust me enough to let me into your life.

But you thought otherwise.And so now,we're both living seperate lives.Songs....shan hu hai,come what may,feng....thanks to you I have so many great memories from that 1 month plus.They are great memories to have with me.The times.I wish you could know...just what effects a simple e-mail can achieve.

Honestly?I'm afraid.Of losing someone close.Of failing to live up to my parent's expectations in my studies.Of losing my friends.Of losing everything.And to a certain extent,I have lost everything already...but I have to pick up and continue right?That's what you want from me...Not to waste my time,trying and waiting.

3 words: It's no waste.

I hope....somehow...that perhaps you might read this.But a part of me also wishes you didn't.I'm confused.Lost and messed up.Not for the first time I've felt this way.You pointed the direction for me once....I really wish when all is over,you'll be there once again pointing it out once more.

ahjuN
an aN

CNY eve eve.-.-

2006-01-27T21:50:00.000-08:00

woot.It's CNY eve eve liao.so fast.2 more days to wearing my new jerseys to go and visit relatives.cant wait.wahahaha.-.-

went back to ATS today.All you people nv go back!wah lao..6G pple why never go back?only Jac meiz steady seh.I was there from like...12+ i think?yea.was with YK the whole time in ATS.cos we both couldn't find any frens.Saw Jedidah there.and her fren.she looked familiar tho.someone remind me to add Jedidah on msn and ask her.well.so while I was walking arnd with YK,saw Mdm Chan and Wu lao shi.I really am amazed with Primary sch.Students asking for permission to clean the floor.Was at Mdm Chan's p2 class when that happened.It's like....in sec sch you practically have to force the 4e6 pple to clean up lo.lol.

so arnd 2,YK left.and I waited.and waited.till Jac reach sch.So off we went to find Mdm Chan again.Found her.then talked and talked.Talked like for...nearly an hr?then we left.Go j8 or near there cos Jac wanted to get new specs.So ok lor.since I got nth to do.Actually wanted to go out de.But someone had another appt to go K-Boxing mah.

then after that,i went home and just....wasted my time on fan fic and my ps2.I really shld be doing work.....got maths.but im lazy.sians.hate myself.Jac was right.i'm lazy.so much for Mdm Chan thinking 6G '02 is a motivated class.And she said our class was the best to teach!WOOO!You rock Mdm Chan!lol.

so anyway.....feeling a little worn out now.I have no idea why.Just feel like....everything's too much to take...you know that feeling?like its...weighing heavily down on you..i dunno.the past few days have been horrible for me.I try to pass it off as transition....adjusting to my life now.just that...sucks la......every night just waiting for something to happen...but nv does...haiz.I knew what was going to happen.I said i din mind.and really i dun.really.just...feels like..there's nth anymore.i noe there is.but i feel there isn't.doesnt make sense does it?hah....im hanging on....even if its by a thread...the thought of managing to live this through past Os is driving me on.Motivation.That's what I need.Yes.Motivation.Aim for the Os.Get over with it.and have a gd time after that.Im in need of a bloody wake up call.Somebody just slap me awake.

Just 3 words are all I wanna hear.....

Come What May

2006-01-21T16:50:00.000-08:00

Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
Want to vanish inside your kiss
Every day I love you more and more
Listen to my heart, can you hear it sing?
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change, winter to spring
But I'll love you until the end of time
Come what may, come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
It all revolves around you.

And there's no mountain too high
No river too wide
Sing out this song and I'll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gather and stars may collide
But I'll love you (I'll love you) until the end of time

Come what may, come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Oh, come what may
Come what may
I will love you, (I will love you)

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place.

Come what may, come what may
I will love you until my dying day

For you...

2006-01-19T21:53:00.000-08:00

Wooo!First must thank YK.cos no YK,means I wouldn't have known Ginette again after leaving ATS.Then must thank Ginette for going to some dance troupe thingy cos Si Hui is there too.But tooted thing is that she's in Bradell Westlake.Which means she was in Andrea's school.Which is tooted cos I've kept in contact with Andrea all these while.So anyway...Si Hui.wahaha.Been trying to contact her since like...sec1?dun ask me why..but yea...been trying to contact all my p6 classmates.i have abt half the class already done.leaving another half.wahahhaah

hmm.Harrison and Shirley trying to kill me.They think they can claim insurance from my death.tooted prats.it wun go to them no matter what.Prats till the they are.lol.

Thnx alot again Gin.

Invaded

2006-01-10T22:59:00.001-08:00

Cham liao!my blog kena invaded!got unknown poster!!wahhhhhh!!!hhahaha jk jk..

well 2nd week of school le.still having to get used to hw and everything again...and life as a sec4 student.i mean....i'm graduating at the end of the year.(hopefully.).-.- but yet....i dun feel like im sec4 you know...i still feel stuck in p6.Soccer crazy.heck care attitude.but its the freaking Os this year!Think shall ask Zhaoyi abt how he studied for the Os.You know what....I'm gonna change my ways liao......I'm gonna start mugging like hell..after the CNY.hah.thats abt it bah.....dun really wan blog a lot.hahaha

bian shen wo zai ni shi zhi de yao wo

Invaded

2006-01-10T22:59:00.000-08:00

Cham liao!my blog kena invaded!got unknown poster!!wahhhhhh!!!hhahaha jk jk..

well 2nd week of school le.still having to get used to hw and everything again...and life as a sec4 student.i mean....i'm graduationg at the end of the year.(hopefully.).-.- but yet....i dun feel like im sec4 you know...i still feel stuck in p6.Soccer crazy.heck care attitude.but its the freaking Os this year!Think shall ask Zhaoyi abt how he studied for the Os.You know what....I'm gonna change my ways liao......I'm gonna start mugging like hell..after the CNY.hah.thats abt it bah.....dun really wan blog a lot.hahaha

wo yao de zhi shi ni zai wo shen bian

IM CEDRIC!

2006-01-08T05:19:00.000-08:00

yayy im finally blogging.
but the funny thing is. im wondering how to blog. ...

nvm. iz been ages since i actually login to blogger. kinda weird feeling.

december's been a great month. lotsa stuff happened although the grounding for 2 mths suck right to the core. missed out on jiahao didi's bday party at kbox. but went on for choir chalet. hospital visit + xray. xmas n new yr outings. blah blah blah. not forgetting my geog mastery. the results are not out yet. lala. this time shld be able to pass bah. hahahs.

january hasnt been a perfect start for 2006 at all. RAIN RAIN & more RAIN. sians. as im blogging right now, iz drizzling out there. as much as i love it, i guess the rain dampens everyone's spirits. everyone at home iz either sleeping or lazing ard or watching tv. hardworking me. im at least BLOGGING. ...

currently listening to shan hu hai. jay rocks my life. i hope sheryl still can get ROW 2 seats for this yr's jielun concert. ahahahs. sher's daddy rocks. lala.

suddenly im thinking abt childhood days.

whenever it was raining.. i'll wear my red raincoat, with matching red boots and a miniature yellow umbrella and run ard the garden screaming. ... ... deprived childhood u see? and my brothers will be either at the hostel, if not locked up in their rooms studying. every bit of being a late child sucks. u hardly noe any kiddy games except tic tac toe. hahahs..

it rained the whole of today. nv did stop at all.

felt like wearing a raincoat, with matching boots, and an umbrella, and run ard the same garden of mine.

just that. i realised things are different.

im no longer 5. im 15, turning 16 in a couple of months.
i no longer own a red raincoat with matching boots, and i only can find those super big umbrellas at home.

but i realised sth else. if i really wanted to run in the garden. i could have ran outside barefooted in home clothes. just get myself drenched and all. just like tht time in the temp block, where me, sheryl jiahao and meigui just ran ran n ran.. danced in the rain..

FUN.

thts all i can think of. hahahs.

abstracted thoughts - thats all i have right now. maybe iz the lack of blogging. hahas.

currently listening to yi lu xiang bei. jay again.
and it reminds me of sth. jielun's bdae in 10 days. everyone, COUNTDOWN! XDD

i think..

i think if i were to list down every single thing on my mind now.. blogger would have died. my com would have died. and cedric would have died waiting. ahahahs.

by now u all should noe that im NOT cedric lah.

hahahs.

HEY HEY! U ALL DUNNO WHO I AM!

HEY HEY! I DUN TELL U!

.......

`_ wo yao de zhi shi ni zai wo shen bian.. ]]'

2005-12-17T16:32:00.000-08:00

k well im bored.so im doing this quiz.

List the names of 20 people in random order:

01. My sis.
02. Harrison
03. Ronald
04. Bryan
05. Luke
06. Priscilla
07. Ann
08. Shirley
09. Jasmine
10. Alan
11. Lihao
12. Zhaoyi
13. Shi Yuan
14. Jacqueline
15. Yi Hui
16. Ginette
17. Tanya
18. Jin Jun
19. Me?if its possible to add myself
20. Jay Chou(i kena forced.Help meeeeeeeee.Lol)

Now answer the questions:
1. Is #1 a boy or girl? Girl.Hello.She's my SIS.
2.Would #11 and #2 make a cute couple?Yea!They would.Considering they are uncle and nephew!lol.
3. How about #18 and #4?Jin Jun and Bryan?hehe.Gays!
4. What grade is #17 in?Next yr Sec4
5. When was the last time you talked to #12?Er hmm.Two days ago?
6. What is #6's favorite band?She likes Jay Chou
7. Does #1 have any siblings?Ya.1 younger brother.Me!Wahahaha-.-
8. Would you ever date #3?Me date Ron?You're having a laugh.
9. Would you ever date #7?Er..I don't see why not?
10. Is #16 single?No.
11. What's #15's last name?Hui.
12. What's #10's middle name?"Roadrunner"?Lol.
13. What's #5's favorite thing to do?Dota.
14. Is #13 hot?-.-. Shi Yuan's a guy.And you nv ask me if a guy is cute/hot etc etc.
15. Would #14 and #19 make a good couple? Me and Jac?I dunno.
16. What school does #20 go to?Out of sch.lol.
17. Tell me a random fact about #11?He has golden hair now.
18. And #1: She nots in Singapore.
19. And #4:Long fringe
20. Have you ever had a crush on #15?No.
21. Where does #9 live?Yishun.
22. What's #3 favorite color?Blue.
23. Would you makeout with #14?No.She's my mei.
24. Are #5 & #6 best friends?No.
25. Does #7 like #2?No.(Big !! in voice when I asked.hahaha)
26. Does #8 like #19?I dunno.Ask her urself.
27. How did you meet #2?3e6 '05 and the fact he stays near me.
28. How did you meet #18?Same Pri sch.
29. Does #10 have any pets?Not that I know of.
30. Is #12 older than you?Yeap.1 yr.
31. Is #17 the sexiest person alive, or what?Maybe to Benedict Tan of VS.

2005-12-12T01:10:00.000-08:00

I saw this thing on Ginette's blog and since I've nth better to do,I'll do this now.Hah.
List (in no particular order) 3 people you talk to online, 4 people you see in school, 2 teachers, 3 people you love going out with and 3 people in your sms inbox.
People:
1)Ann
2)Shirley
3)Ginette
4)Yi Hui
5)Sis
6)Priscilla
7)Mr Tan Yan Ho
8)Mr Pang
9)Jasmine
10)Ronald
11)Li Hao
12)Harrison
13)Bryan
14)Luke
15)Kah Meng
Questions:
1. What do you think of number 4?-Nice girl.Know her for only a yr.But very easy to talk to.
2. How would you feel if number 4 slapped your face?-Shock la.Considering we havent met face to face yet.-.-.But yea,shock.
3. How nice is number 6?-Very nice.Great person.
4. On a scale of 10, how much would you rate number 5?-10 simply cos she's my sis.
5. Will you ever fall for number 11?-Fall for Lihao?Hell...I ain't gay.
6. Honestly, if number 8 meet with an accident, what will you do?-Er..I dunno.Just concerned lo.Quite a good teacher la.
7. What sport would you play with number 12?- Hehe.Soccer or badminton.
8. What if number 1 got a boyfriend?-Er wow...I dunno.A mix of feelings?Hah.
9. Do you hate number 9?-No.Why would I hate Jas?She's a gd friend.
10. How much do you like number 2?-Can I not say?
11. Will 13 and 7 make a good couple?-Hahah.I can imagine and Bryan and TYH together.hahahahaha.
12. Would 14 one day kill you?-I dunno.He has the money to hire a bounty hunter for my head.So hey,who knows?Hah.But I don't think so.Luke's a nice guy.
13. Who do you like more between 3 and 10?-Hmmm.Equally?Cos like...one is a very gd fren and the other is a .....very gd fren.heh?Hahaha.Yea.Equally.Cos they are both great friends.

Well...that was interesting?Heh..at least I'm not that bored.

2005-12-10T23:00:00.000-08:00

LIVERPOOL IS 2ND NOW!!!

A great win over Boro tonight.Started off rather ok.....ended 0-0 at half time.Gerrard at 2 shots under 5 minutes into the match.Second half Liverpool came out and applied the pressure and we got 2 great goals from Morientes!For better match details,refer to LadyLala aka Chun Lian's blog.

LIVERPOOL 2-0 MIDDLESBOROUGH

Match Details:

Liverpool: Reina,Finnan,Carragher,Hyypia,Riise,Gerrard,Sissoko,Alonso,Kewell(Cisse),Morientes(Josemi),Crouch(Garcia).

Match Stats
Liverpool Middlesbrough
Shots (on Goal)
23(13) 6(3)
Fouls
10 18
Corner Kicks
11 2
Offsides
2 3
Amt.of Possession
62% 38%
Yellow Cards
1 2
Red Cards
0 1
Saves
1 14

2005-12-10T03:21:00.000-08:00

It's like 3.15 am on Saturday,December 10th.I'm up so late to watch the World Cup draw.It's my first time.So I wanna make it memorable.Hah.-.-.Well.I've been up since 10am,Friday December 9th up till now without any sleep.It's amazing what adrenaline does to you.Hahah.I can't wait for the draw.Personally?I'm rooting for England.Steven Gerrard and Jamie Carragher,the 2 main reasons why I'm even supporting them.Without them,I think I wouldn't like England that much what if Neville,Rooney,Rio in the squad...it's just bloody rubbish.If not England,I'm backing.....Brazil or Argentina to win it.But if you believe what is being said,next yr's tournament will belong to an European country.

Well,these few days has been ok.Just hit me that it's nearing mid December and I've yet to start on my revision.But I will.soon.Real soon.The draw is in another 10mins.So I'm off now.

And oh yea,Liverpool is now 3rd in the EPL.We're slowly but surely climbing up the table.And Crouchy scored!Woooo!C'mon you Reds!C'mon you Reds!!!

2005-12-09T18:54:00.000-08:00

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2005-12-01T14:04:00.000-08:00

WAHAHAHAHAHA

1)CHELSEA
2)MAN U
3)ARSENAL
4)LIVERPOOL

First time this season!!This is where we(the club,fans,supporters) all want to be.In the top 4.Challenging for the title.Even if its not this season.Next season we shld slowly go higher up the table.In 3 seasons time,I think Rafa would have brought us to the summit of English football.Back where the Mighty Reds shld be.Up there.Number 1!I can just imagine it now...Steven Gerrard lifting that elusive trophy that has landed in those filthy,undeserving arms of manure and chelski.Arsenal deserve winning it la last few seasons.The way they play is out of this world.And I attribute it to one man: Thierry Henry.He is a footballing genius.The things he can do is just magnificent.He is the glue that binds Arsenal together and helps them play the good flowing elegant style of football I dare say can rival Brazil's Samba style or Holland's Total Football.What Henry,Fabregas,Pires,Van Persie,Ljungberg and the Dutch master himself,Bergkamp do on the ball is just bloody brilliant.Off the ball they are great too.

K enough of Arsenal,back to Liverpool.My beloved Liverpool.I dare say no one in school is at crazy about soccer or Liverpool as I am.I may not play good football or semm enthusiastic abt soccer but I am truly an ardent Liverpool fan.I mean...I really dunno what I'd do if Liverpool din exist sia.Liverpool is my life.I've seen players like Owen,Diouf,Babbel,Xavier,Westerveld,Berger,Smicer and Bsican(These 2 I'll never forget.Legends in their last season at Anfield) come and go.I've borrowed videos from my uncle on past seasons of Liverpool...back in the 95/96 season.When Redknapp was still captain.And I realise that Liverpool this season...is the best I've ever seen.With a stable back 5 of Reina,Carragher,Hyypia,Finnan and Warnock/Riise/Traore,the defence has been at its meanest.How else can you explain the form of 7 games without a goal conceded?That 630 minutes of shut outs!Honestly,it's down to Rafa's tactical brilliance.It's just amazing.It's the same as when he was at Valencia and had a stable back 5 in Canizares,Curro Torres,Aurelio,Marchena and Ayala.It's just fantastic.

Anyway,we beat Sunderland 2-0 last night.Luis Garcia and Steven Gerrard got the goals for us.It was a poor game honestly.Very poor.But hey,people always say that a great team gets a result no matter how poorly they play.And that's true.Liverpool is great.We have a great defence.And not forgetting a unbeatable midfield.Just look at this.Riise/Kewell/Zenden on the left.3 wingers who are great on the left flank.Hamann,Alonso,Sissoko,Gerrard.In central midfield,Liverpool has the best players.Manure had Keane,but his gone now.Arsenal had Vieira,but he is also gone.Chelsea.....they cant compare..Their unlimited financial power is an absolute disgrace to the game.

Alright..enough abt Liverpool.I'm just glad we're back to the Top..and with 1 game in hand!Hah!

2005-11-29T07:02:00.000-08:00

Hmmm.Been really bored these few days.K so I'll start off where I left off.

So Tues I was at Harrison's hse right?Yea.We(Li Hao,Harrison,Bryan and I) were like juts slacking arnd.Doing nth at all.Listen to music.Then decided to watch Scary Movie 2 first.Was like damn funny la.I forgot some parts already actually till I watched it again.Was damn funny.Laughing my ass off while watching that.Hahah.Then after that was like...Bryan fell asleep and the 3 of us din really have anything else to do.So Harrison blogged,then I blogged then we watched Scary Movie 1.Hahahaha.Man..The Wayan Brothers rock la.This kinda lameass dumb show also can come up with and film.Hahaha.Then after that,Harrison made cheesy hotdogs for the 3 of us.Wahaha.Was nice.And we were hungry.It was like 12+ already.Then Li Hao went to play CS.He went ballistic sia.Playing a 20-20 match.and still somehow managed to win.And not only that,he came out with nearly 11 kills.Its like...wth.Like Harrison would say: Nutsicles.

Wednesday I got home around 2.After waking up arnd 12 at Harrison's hse.We slept at like...4am?Haha.Then that night had tuition.Went to serangoon to have it and Mrs Ng sent me and Harrison home.And well..some things happen.And I want to say(just in case she reads it),I'm sorry for lying.Din mean to.I'm really sorry.

Thurs went Bryan's hse for "party"Supposed to watch movie?watched the starting then Jasmine sorta got drunk.Her whole face was red because of drinking christmas wine.Then after that Shirley got drunk.She drank a mixture of codka,christmas wine,yakult(2 flavours mind you)and beer.Her face was totally red too.Then I sorta got drunk?Not really very very drunk.Just abit only.But yet I managed to do stupid stuffs and say dumb crap.And the thing is...I don't really remember what happen.But I dun think I was very drunk.But if I was,then I am a poor drinker sia.Which I don't think I am.I can drink quite ok.So well,next time see how?wahahaha.jking jking.I'm not going to plan to get drunk again.Not after waht I apparently tried to do that night and what I apparently said.So yeap.Let's just leave it at that.Yup.After that arnd 4,we weren't that drunk anymore.And we watched Guess Who.Then arnd 6 we went to sleep.But Bryan stupidly got himself drunk and alot of things happen before we all fell asleep.Oh except Ron and Harrison.They both din sleep at all.Hmm.then I woke up arnd 7.Cos I heard murmurring.Realised it was Shirley.Her alarm went off and she caleld Pris to wake her up cos they had to go Peicai for a softball friendly match.After that one by one wake up.Then Bryan's granddad ask us go down for breakfast.So we sorta reluctantly went down and ate some toasted bread before leaving.

I got home around 9.Slept till like 12 without knowing it.I was lying on the bed watching MTV when I knocked out.Hah.Then after that went down for lunch and came back up arnd 1.Then I slept again till arnd 1.30pm.Then I can't really remember what else I did already.

Saturday...kinda just stoned at home doing nth.Sunday went to grandparents hse.Monday...we went to Harrison's friend,Szejin, bday party?A chalet at downtown east there.Went for bbq.We all sorta chipped in for a bday gift.Got there arnd 7+.Ate some food,played Blackjack,then kinda just crapped arnd.It was damn weird lor.like we were the only ones crapping arnd.Then had bday cake.Was nice.Ice cream cake.wahaha.delicious.Ice cream + cake=JOY!Wahahah.Love the cake man.Who doesnt love ice cream cake?hahaha.Then we left cos Jasmine had to go home.We took...969?back to Yishun.Took only abt 30mins lor.So fast.Then Bryan,Li Hao,Harrison and I went to Macs.They ate,I drank and arnd 11,I and Harrison left for home while Bryan and Li Hao went to find Shirley cos Bryan wanted to borrow Warcraft.Then came home arnd...1130?Or close to there.

Then today another boring day.Stuck at home with nth to do.So sian seh my life.....

2005-11-23T02:09:00.000-08:00

Hah.How many days din blog already?ehh.but i think this is less than the other time.that time was like nearly 2 weeks diff lor.nuts.hah.

K so on Sat I went to have dinner with my granparents and Godpa,Godma andmy other Godmum and my cousin Wilfred.Man...He has grown up so fast lo.r5yrs old liao.Wahaha.so cute.Then after that I went to meet Harrison at the Taxi stand at J8.His dad kindly sent us to Simei where Pris and Jas were working.So we got there like arnd..15mins?Yea.Hah.So fast.Take train easily would have taken nearly and hour to reach there lo.So we got there arnd 8.We went to meet them at the store first before heading to the Pet Safari.Man..there were 2 new Golden Retrievers.Damn cute.Even more cute than the other ones we saw that day.

After that we just walked arnd continuously round the 2nd floor while waiting for the girls to knock off.Then headed towards City Hall to meet Bryan before going to Yishun to have dinner/supper.Hah.Then sent Jas home before we pia taxi back to Bishan.Hah.Got home arnd 1+am.But my dad and mum din really scold cos well.They were still awake.Hah.Saturday nights...Soccer.Man.That saved me from a good hiding sia.Oh and I received the news that no tuition the next day so I was rather happy.Hmm.Then went to Dedap Road to visit my granparents.Before reaching home around 10+.

On Monday,I called Ann at about....830?To wake her up.Cos she had choir that day.....at 1pm.So was like.So -.-.She ask me wake her up so early.Hah.But in a way was gd?Cos she managed to catch Feli online.So we talked for like an hr over the phone before we swicthed to video convo.So we talked till like...close to 12?Cos her dad was sending her to meet some of frens.So yea.Then I went to catch Harry Potter with the guys and the girls.Ended arnd 6+pm.And almost would have met Ann if I hadn't gone and tried to find the guys and the girls.Cos I rushed to the toilet cos I had a damn full bladder and had been controlling it since midway through the film.Hah.Then after that we ate at Pastamania.Some small 10inch pizza which was hardly enough for us.Then went to Bishan Park and slacked there till arnd 12.After that I went home,while the rest went to Bryan's hse and stayed overnight.And Harrison apparently got drunk.Haha.

Then on Tuesday,I woke up at 745 to wake Ann up again.Cos she had choir at 10am.So we talked for awhile before going online to talk for a little while.Then I found out abt the guys and girls staying over and went to Bryan's hse.Then over there we went to Iman for brunch.Hah.Then after that headed to AMK to look for FIFA06.But was sold out.Yet again.Urgh.I want that game!!!-.-.Then I met up with Ann while with the guys and headed to the library.So she and I sat there reading while the guys were doing stupid stuff.So Ann quickly left and we followed.Then we just went to the same busstop and we went home.It was cool to see Ann.First time since p6.Hah.She changed quite alot since I last saw her.But then gain,I vaguely remember her from ATS.But yea,after all these months of webcamming finally get to see her in person,was cool.and nice.hah.

So here I am,at Harrison's hse.Sitting at the com,blogging.Bryan's asleep on the bed already.And we're just shivering in his damn cold room.And Harrison just touched my leg.WTF.Mich was right.He IS gay.

2005-11-19T00:40:00.000-08:00

Hmm.well.today.Hahah.Woke up like..1130?i was surprised.considering i went off quite early.Hahaha.So woke up.Then Harrison told me abt the plans to play pool.I was kinda upset.cos bryan and the guys din tell me anything till Harrison did?Im upset cos..in a way,I was the link that brought this clique between the guys originally.It was like....I hung out with Ron and Bryan last time.I hung out with Harrison and Ben.But never together as a group.Then after June holidays,we started hanging out as a group?And thus the clique was formed.So i felt like the importance level of friends became like this:

Ron(Cos like.everyone likes him arnd.He's always so friendly and stuff)
Bryan(Dunno why.But he's like..the coordinator of most things)
Harrison(Seems like everyone wants him arnd)
Ben(He was higher I guess,till the whole thing with me and him)
Me

Yea.Its like noone wants me arnd anymore.No one tells me anything.Kinda feel very leftout.Cos I'm the kinda guy who needs friends.They are very impt to me.Which is why since pri sch,I always had a very close friend to talk to.Share my feelings with.Pri sch was Shi Yuan and much later,Jac.Sec 1..I din have any close friends.Cos well I din really know anyone?Except Yong Kit and Elvin cos YK from Aitong also and our classes were kinda close while Elvin was cos we attended the same chinese lessons at Eduplus.Sec2 was Kenneth Sim.Then now is Harrison.Maybe cos we live near each other and stuff thats why we're pretty close?But it's like..he's the only guy I'm really comfortable talking to about stuffs.And maybe cos we're sorta in the same boat or sth?Yea.So its like...I've been pushed to the lowest member of this clique.Kinda hard to take considering I was sorta the link at the beginning.

So met Harrison at my block arnd 1630.Supposed to go Hougang check out for Fifa06.But was like he wanted to go play pool and see her?So ok lor.We went there instead.Reached arnd 5+.then we played till arnd 8?or abit earlier.Then we left for dinner.Tapao-ed Macs to Jas house.Then was there till close to 10 before we came home.Had quite a good time today.Loads of laughter.

So right now,I'm sitting here...just thinking abt her...It seems so..desperate I know.But I also dunno why I think of her so much?Considering we aren't close anymore.And that she likes another guy.And that she asks Bryan to call her to chat at night?And that she smses Bryan so often now?I admit I'm jealous cos well,I miss talking to her.
What I'm messed up about is that she's this girl who I don't mind sacrificing my time and money for.When she went to Scotts Rd to work,I'd wake up early and meet her at Yishun and follow her to work and just wait for her from 12 to 8.No questions asked.For almost 3 days straight.When she went to work at Simei,I had no qualms about going all the way from Bishan to almost the end of Singapore just to get a glimpse of her.No complaints.Till I got home so late that night that I'm now kinda not wanting to go there too often.But I want to.But now I can't cos tmr got dinner with my granddad and stuffs.Then Sun got tuition and after that need go my grandparents hse.And I'm not sure if she's still working on Mon.So its like yea.Then I've sorta calculated how much I spent on her.I spent $8 for the concert tickets that time.Another $8 on the Brothers Grimm movie the guys and girls watched together to sorta celebrate Harrison's bday.Then got the $10 I gave her for "allowance" cos I was her Laopa.Then the $3 I gave her to top-up her ezlink card.And when she wanted the Jay Chou CD,I spent $19.90 just to get it for her.But under Bryan's name cos he was supposed to get it,but never had the intention to do so.Oh and I chipped in $5 for her bday gift with the guys.Sorta totalled up to slightly more than $50.Shocking huh.
Here's the problem.I know she'll never like me.But here I am spending all this time and money on her and I don't find it a waste at all.You might think"Oh you asshole.So much money to spend you spend it on a girl who doesn't even like you?Nutjob asswipe."But that's the thing I'm messed up about.It's not a waste to me.At all.I'm more than happy to buy her that CD.Seeing her face when she got the CD,I was so happy inside.Cos you shld have seen the look on her face.She was smiling from ear to ear.I was just so darn happy to see her like this.Just to see her smile.So cheerful.I want her to be happy...and I guess that's also why I don't want her to know I got her the CD.Cos I don't want her to think I'm only getting it just so I can win her heart.I just want to see her smile.And her smiles bring me elation.I'm messed up right?Hah...

2005-11-16T21:55:00.000-08:00

hahahhaah here's my super super late update i guess?hahaha

k well.its the holidays already.things u guys already know is that well...promoted to sec4.very happy.haha.next yr Os liao.died-ed.lol

hmm.well.last week i think i was at home the whole week.if im not mistaken.hmm.i think that's right.haha.kinda boring innit?well the guys seem to be like.leaving me out of stuffs till this week.so was like yea.kinda sucked.oh wells.Hmm.then saturday also same thing.kinda sad huh?haha.then sunday got tuition.after that i and harrison went to....crap.i forgot.oh ya.suntec.cos pris and jas were working there?yea.then left arnd 10?or thereabts cos they knocked off at 830 but stayed to play arcade.for me?$5bucks gone like that.Hah.dun ask me how i spent it.All im saying is $1 on drinks for myself.the other $4 went to other pple.-.-

Mon..went to buy school books.then headed to bryan's hse to slack.then jas and pris came.then ron.then luke.so we were like..watching tv,playing com,messing with bryan's BRAND NEW guitar.lol.then after that we ordered kfc.so another $5 from me gone.hah.then while eating we watched simpsons before jas said she wanted to watch blair witch 2 since bryan had it.So we watched it.kinda nice i guess?compared to other horror movies like i've watched like red candy which i watched with the bcc alumni.That one was soooo dumb.i couldnt believed i spent $7.50 on that.then shortly through the film,pris left.then like....half an hr later?luke left too.so left the 4 of us.then we kinda spooked each other out while in bryan's room.said stupids stuffs and kinda freaked us all out.haha.now seems kinda dumb.lol.

Tuesday..hmm.oh ya.woke up at like...740?cos had dental appt.tighten my braces again..its been a yr now.glad to see it straightening out.hahah.for $3000,hell it better work.lol.then after that went home before heading to the mrt at 1 to meet jas,bryan and harrison.and apparently we were all supposed to meet later but nobody told me.so hah...still left out on plans.then went thompson cos jas got some interview for work there.at thompson.saw pple playing fifa06.oh god..i so want that game now.I miss fifa games....oh well.hopefully can get tmr at heartland.hmm.then after that we went to simei to find pris cos she was working there.then got there...mood kinda weird.loads of tension in the air.then went to the pet safari.man...the dogs there were so nice lo..the siberian huskey,the golden retreivers,pomeranian,maltese etc etc.and the hamsters......aw man..they were damn cute and small.so nice to look at.then ron met us.then we went to the pet safari again.lol.saw everything again.then jas cried cos some woman bought the shih tzu.it was so cute lor(the dog,not jas crying).then after that went for dinner at the banquet,some food court.then after that just kinda slacked till pris knocked off at 10.then we all went home.i reached home arnd 1140 i think.cos like...we left damn late.-.-.yea.

today.supposed to go pray with my dad at amk and waterloo strt.but didnt.stayed at home and rotted away like the lazy ass i am.hah.then arnd 4plus?went to play soccer with harrison at bishan park.but then rained.why does it always rain when i wanna play soccer?sian.so arnd 5plus it got rather heavy so we headed for the blocks and we talked abt alot of stuff.scrapped a lot.lol.had a gd time today.if not for the bloody rain would have more fun with soccer.oh well.so thats abt it..

haha.thats the first update in like....almost 2 wks?wahhaaha.

2005-11-04T00:59:00.000-08:00

so yea well.past 3 days rather ok bahz.

Tuesday met Pris at 11 at Yishun to follow her to work.then there i sat for like 3 hrs?while she did her job.then Jin,Ben and Tanya came to find me.followed them to Cine then went back to Scotts Shopping Centre cos Pris' workbreak liao.So after that the guys came and we went to Marina Square to play pool but under16 so we couldn't then by then Pris had to get back to work,so I accompanied her back to where she worked.then i went home while she went to meet her frens.

Wednesday again followed Pris but Shirley was there too.then again spent most of the time sitting down keeping Pris company.then after that,she knocked off we went to play pool.Reached home arnd 12.

Thursday went Aunty Janet house for Hari Raya.though we aint Malay.then after that Uncle Tony brought a few of us to see a showroom flat where they will be moving to in 3 yrs time.Then Uncle Raymond and Aunty Chris deciding on whether to buy it.So is my mum and dad.Heheh.Its damn nice and spacious lor.but its like very near town.Far away from her.haiz.oh well.Its called the Riveredge.The plan looks great.Then after that Uncle Tony sent me to Scotts again.Thanks!Haha.then met with Pris and Bryan then Jas join.then waited for my nu er to knock off before heading to Yishun to send her home.then after that came home.

Thats abt the gist of it bahz.haha

2005-11-01T10:08:00.000-08:00

Haiz well.Things are over.between so many of us that it just sucks to see things end the way they did.

But I just wanted to say that I'll still be there for you though I've given up hopes of ever getting back together.I'm still not sure if its the best choice that I could have made.But i figure that it will all work out for the best.I may seem fine now on the outside,but inside,I'm still a mess.I'm still surprised at how quickly things ended.And like you said,perhaps it was nothing but infatuation.

I’ll be just fine pretending I’m not
This line just seems so meaningful now.

0710005-201005
Never forgotten

2005-10-28T20:05:00.000-07:00

Hmm.shall blog bah.but just a short one.

so today when to play pool with the usual people.had fun la.took my mind of stuffs.hmm.i played 1 game,the others played arnd..2 games?yea.i got teamed up with Bryan and Ronald with Ben.We won!haha.yea!haha.so then after that Harrison came to find us to surprise Jasmine.Great guy la Harrison.Really happy that he found someone he loves.Gd for ya bro.

Hmm.thats abt it for today.maybe will blog tmr or sth.

------Anthem Of Our Dying Day------
The stars will cry the blackest tears tonight
And this is the moment that I live for
I can smell the ocean air
Here I am, pouring my heart onto these rooftops
Just a ghost to the world
That's exactly, exactly what I need

From up here, the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem of our dying day

For a second, I wish the tide
Will swallow every inch of the city
As you gasp for air tonight
I'd scream this song right in your face, if you were here
Swear I won't miss a beat
Cause I never, never have before

From up here, the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem of our dying day

Of our dying day
Of our dying day
Of our dying day

For a second, I wish the tide
Would swallow every inch of this city
As you gasped for air tonight

From up here, the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem of our dying day

From up here, the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem of our dying day

From up here, the city lights burn
Like a thousand miles of fire
And I'm here to sing this anthem of our dying day

Our dying day
Of our dying day

2005-10-21T21:44:00.000-07:00

071005---201005

Over but never forgotten.

It would have been 2 wks today.but i guess it was never meant to happen.

2005-10-20T20:20:00.000-07:00

well.today was quite a gd day.finally end of the exams!woo!hahaha.

went to parkway parade for lunch with ronald,bryan and harrison.because like.well.we hardly go to ronald's area.so today was the first time we ventured there.had lunch.then walked arnd.went to some pet shop.saw this damn cute labrador lor.black.i think abt 3 mnths old nia.damn cute.also got hamsters there.1 super fat one sia.damn cute.haha.

then after that on the way home feel asleep.-.-.a 35min ride to serangoon from parkway parade.not my fault.-.-.then after that took 58 and guess who i saw on the bus?Peres de Olivera!!My God!!An actual professional footballer!!!In case u dunno who he is,de Olivera is plays for Home Utd,my local club.He is a midfielder/striker.Score many impt goals over the course of his Home Utd career.I think he was heading to the stadium for tonight's match.haha.so cool lor get to see an actual pro footballer live.

1 yr pass by so fast.Ups and downs again and again.well thats life isnt it?hahz.

2005-10-17T16:45:00.000-07:00

back to blog for awhile i guess.

hmm.well its the exam period.left 3 and 1/2 papers to go.then fri and mon holiday.shld do well this time round despite my lack of studying.hah.i think i would probably do very badly for chem and physics and poa.dunno.maths this time hopefully will do rather well.

hmm.going through a rough patch in life now i guess.so this is gonna be it.for now.

9/10/05

2005-10-09T21:01:00.000-07:00

Haha.I'm blogging cos someone asked me to.And I sorta promised to do so.So here goes.

Ytd went to school around 8 to have maths remedial.had it till abt nine++close to 10 i think.then after that went to j8 to do some work and have lunch with harrison and bryan while ron stayed in school to finish up on the maths stuff before meeting us for lunch.

The after that met up with Shir,Jas,Pris and Irfan to go sembawang and study.Went to KFC and sat down to study.Did some of my maths before Ronald came.Then after that Harrison came much later.After that Zhaoyi came down to meet and study too.Hmm.Irfan and Zhaoyi are the girls' friends.Didn't know them before ytd.But they are rather friendly and very funny too.

Then after that we were there till like 7+.then followed harrison home to Bishan.just abt to reach that time,I was asked to go back.So i did.Then after Harrison had his tuition,he came down to join us too.By that time,Ron left.So we stayed till like arnd 10++ before going home.

Then today slept till 12.how gd it felt.11 hrs of slp.woo!then woke up.had lunch,prepared to go for tuition.then after that went home to go see doc.doc say my recent diarrhoea shld be because of a mild virus attack.he gave medicine and voila!im here.hahah.

thats abt it bahz.

You make me feel on top of the world.

2005-10-01T21:57:00.000-07:00

hmm.well today had an ok day bahz.

Last night slept arnd 1 plus.conference call with Pris,Shir,Jas and Harrison.The girls were watching Ju-On.And were busy getting scared.Hahaha.then I had to go off cos dad chased me to sleep.bleah.

Slept till abt.9++ i think.switched on my hp.received 3 msgs from Shir in the middle of the night.haha.u cute la Shir.send so many.Hahaha.and well,the 3rd msg caught me by surprise.So used to the com till arnd 130 cos meeting bryan at bishan mrt.then headed down to ps to meet ron.before heading to yishun to meet the girls and Harrison.then after that headed to woodsland.went to yoshinoya for lunch i guess.then we started on our studies.then when the 4 guys went to buy food/drinks,Bryan superbly left Shir's Zen Micro and his hp on the table.-.-.super smartness bryan.So we tot it was lost.Heh.Then after awhile we were chased out.told we couldn't study there.so decided to try the library at woodlans civic centre.closed.diaoz.so we headed to Sembawang.

Went there the mos burger to study.not bad.got place.haha.oh ya.by that time shir's zen micro was "found" already along with bryan's hp.haha.so sat there and studied till arnd 7+.sent the girls to the busstop for them to take to yishun.then i,ron and harrison walked to the mrt to g home.reached home.had a gd dinner.haha.

thats abt it bahz.kinda tired.

2005-09-25T01:08:00.000-07:00

Woo!!!Today rocked!!!Harrison rocks!!!Jasmine rocks!!!Pris rocks!!!Shirley rocks!!Ronald rocks!!Bryan rocks!!Luke rocks!!Adi rocks!!!Sanmugan rocks!!!

So today went out to celebrate Harrison's bday.So met up with them at PS.went to watch movie.Decided on The Brothers Grimm.Then went to Mrt station to wait for the gals.They reach then we found out that Pris and Jas didn't want to watch.But in the end they didnt mind.So it was like 3.movie was at 4.so we went Star Factory.The gals played some Beatmania thing while Adi again showed his proness by winning Marvel v Capcom.Then after that went to watch the show.Quite funny.Jas keep laughing.Then we seated like this: Jasmine,Harrison,Me,Pris,Shirley,Sanmugan,Ron,Luke,Adi,Bryan.i think.lol.Haha.thnx for jas for offering to change seat even though i noe u wanted to sit with pris and shirley.Haha.thnx loads.

Movie ended arnd 6.decided to go for dinner.plan was pizza hut.turn out too packed.so by the time we decided was arnd 8+.we went to taka before going to heeren before deciding on cineleisure.Then ate a place called Esteler77.ergh.the food is bad.the portion so little somemore.and the price is super high.im nv eating there again.Then after that found out pris had to be home by 930.but she leave now also too late.so called her mum to ask if she could stay longer.but her mum nv pick up.so we just walk arnd.ended up loaning her 10bucks to pierce her ears.haha.then she later thnk me for it and offered to pay it back.said it didnt matter.told her to treat it like another bday present from me.lol.i already had a share in a techno cd i and ron bought for her on her bday itself.then recently shirley bought her a mug and i also had a share in that.lol.

So after that her mum called back and ask her go home now.then harrison mum also same.but his mum let him stay out till 11 then he must go home.Pris not so lucky.so we followed her to the Mrt and sent her off.then we headed down to esplanade.so weird.everyone leaving esplanade but we heading there.lol.got there spent abt 20mins seating arnd talking.Haha.Then after that left to go home.Haha.ended up taking a train with jas and shir cos harrison's parents came to pick him.

That's abt it.but i enjoyed myself thoroughly.haha.and oh ya.Thank you Thank you Thank you Thank you so much shirley.Haha.you noe what Im referring to.Haha.thnx again.

2005-09-21T22:56:00.000-07:00

Today.Haha.Entire class(exc.the catholic boys)were made to sing the school song from the field.cos we didn't sing loud enough the first time.bloody hell la Mr.Pang.We sang quite loud already lo.

Then during PE.Played touch rugby.My team sucks.I suck.Safith's team rocks.They came up with a damn gd strategy.

Ben say Harrison must either break up with Jas or buy him a new bass in order for everything to be over.
After school,went j8.Met up with Pris,Shirley and Jas.I was with Ron,Bryan,Harrison and Ben.Then went food junction.There,I,Ron,Jas,Harrison ate our dinners.while Pris and Shir did their work.Bryan just joked arnd with us.Then after that arnd 6+ went to bus stop to send the girls home.Then Ron and Bryan took taxi to serangoon.

On the way back,met up with Tanya.Walked her to her block before I and Harrison went to play soccer.but his mum called and ask him go tuition so in the end nv play.

Thats abt it la.Very slack typing cos I kinda lazy.And tired.So there.Hah.

Great to see you again.Wanna see you more.I miss you so much.

2005-09-20T20:58:00.000-07:00

Haha.well.Cause shirley said that I ask her blog and she did but I didn't,I decided to blog lor.

Hm.Well.Today is Bill Shankly's birthday.For those who didn't know,he is THE greatest managers ever to have graced the footballing scene.Brough a languishing Liverpool from the midtables of the old Second Division to the old First Division.Brought in players like the Emlyn Hughes,Ray Clemence and so many more legends.R.I.P Bill.You're the best manager that any football club could ever have.You'll Never Walk Alone.

So today,was a so-so day.Very sleepy.dunno why.then Ben decided not to dao all of us except Harrison.Dunno why.Hmm.Then after school went to play soccer.Played awhile against the Sec4/5 of Zhonghua.They damn pro.But we held on though we lost.I think I played ok.quite sucky though.I think I was at fall for 1 of the goals.Didnt close that guy quick enough.But was quite ok la.For the experience.So after that went home.and did abit of studying.Heh.

That's abt it.Haha.Kinda boring right?Lol.

Still holding on.Ain't gonna give up.You mean just too much to me.

2005-09-15T22:23:00.000-07:00

Haiz.Seriously dunno what's wrong with me now.Been thinking abt her the whole day.Not just today.For the past month.Every single day.Haiz.I know I sound like a borderline stalker or some fella who is of unsound mind.I just miss her.Miss her so much.Miss her so so much.The though of her for now is just enough.

I told Shirley last night.That I truly feel very strongly for her.I said to the grp before that me saying I like her is wrong cos its too weak while me saying I love her is too strong.Well,I realise I was wrong.I do love her.as strange as it may sound.I really love her.I can't help it.God,I sound damn despo.Haiz.

I really dunno anymore.Am I even anything to her?I know she smses him often.Hardly talk to her nowadays.How much I would give just to see her again,talk to her again.Tell her things I wanna say to her.I just dunno how she'll react.What if I told her that I miss her?That I love her?How would she react.Would she ever know that I'd do anything for her.Because of her?.She might say that there are better girls out there.But I don't care.She is who she is.And that means everything.

As Shirley put it,I'm crazy over her.Haiz.But how does she feel?I wish I knew.

Know,just know...I will hold on.No matter how long it takes.Cos I love you.And nothing can ever change that.

2005-09-14T20:36:00.000-07:00

woo.I have decided!

That shld i do very well or achieve what i have set for myself for SA2,I will reward myself with a little shopping.

Where?At La Vanita at Peninsula.

What's there for me?LIVERPOOL THINGS!Woooo!!!

I'm gonna get this season's european home jersey and imprint either Carra/Carragher 23 or Cedric 36.

If they dun have maybe this season's away kit.with the same name and numbering.Or maybe a sweatband or a pic.I dunno.there are just so many things I wanna get.And not forgetting the Liverpool 04/05 season review dvd which i want so badly.hehe.Man,I'm crazy over Liverpool!Lol.

--And I'm crazy over her too.But I guess she'll never find out.Right Shirley?Hehe.Ssssh.

2005-09-12T22:51:00.000-07:00

The sky has fallen,
Fallen so fast in a blink of an eye,
I just wish for a moment,
Things turned out differently.

The world I once knew,
Gone just like the past,
My heart feels the pain,
And I still miss you.

But I know,
Things won't turn out right,
And all I can say is,
I still love you.

Lies were told feelings were hurt,
And yet your world goes on,
My life's in shambles,
And I'm falling even further.

There is no mistaking,
That the pain I feel is real.
There is no disguising,
That my life is as good as over.

But I know,
That things won't turn out right,
And all I can say is,
I still love you.

But just tell me,
Is this the price to pay,
For loving you,
The way I did.

--A song I wrote for Lateral Existence when I was bored.Looks like a love song.Hmm.maybe so.wrote it when I was super down la.But now,looks like Lateral Existence won't even take off.So much problems already.

Haiz.why all this happen now?Ben,you damn what la.When will you find another person who care so much abt you,remain so loyal to you,take up ur sometimes kinda piss off-ing attitude?She cares so much abt you lor and yet today you can't even apologise to her?or just talk to her?You say you wanna break up so that you wun drag her down with you.U're dragging her down now with the way you're acting la bro.Haiz.hope u come to ur senses soon.Shirley is really upset by all this.And as ur and her frens,the rest of us are feeling it too.

Hmm.hope Pris will be careful.Yishun now very prone to dengue attacks along with places like AMK and Hougang.Hope she looks after herself well.Same goes for Jas,Shir and Ben.Take care hor.Later tio liao dun come find me ok?I ill as it is already.Lol.no la.Got pain,we share.Got joy,we also share.

2005-09-10T00:21:00.000-07:00

Woo!The gig rocked!Yea man!!!!WOOOOO!!!!

Wahahah.I'm so freaking high right now!Just wanna mosh the night away!Wooo!KK so the day started with me meeting Ron,Adi and Bryan to do hw first.Do until arnd 4?Harrison met us then arnd 5 we meet Benedict,Shirley and Jas at Bishan MRT.From there proceeded to go to AMK to take 130 that would bring us directly to Ceylon Sports Club.

So we got there arnd 549?was super early and we were the first ones there besides those performing.So slowly 1 by 1 more pple came and arnd 715 the gig started.The Cereal Killers were up first.Played Blink 182 songs and their own,Adventure Books.

After that Paradoxus played a song by Red Hot Chilli Peppers.Saf sang!Woo!Go Saf!Then Inertia played a coupla songs before Sloryae took over.They played Finch,FFAF and loads more.Then hmm.Got one part before that where Saf,Nic and Terence wanted to play Feeling This by Blink 182 and was looking for a singer as Nic didnt noe the lyrics.So we tried to get Harrison to sing.Even got everyone in the room to chant his name.But he didn't want to cos he forgot the lyrics.-.-".

So after everything,we left arnd 9+close to 10.went to AMK to just slack arnd.Ate at Macs before we decided to leave.Then all of a sudden felt like moshing.Lol.So after that saw 88 and I zao leaving the rest to go home.Harrison was going to send Jas home while Ron was going Bryan's hse cos his dad was gonna pick him up only arnd 230.Lol.then Jas and Shir were like.so cute lor.they were singing some chinese song and were grabbing my hand.grabbing Ron's hand.lol.

So now Im home.feeling super bored but not tired.Cos Im too pumped from the gig!Man I hope Lateral Existence can hold this kinda gig next yr after the O lvls!But first we gotta get our game together and master the instruments.

Till next time...Let's mosh!!!

2005-09-08T21:46:00.000-07:00

Was looking arnd the official liverpool fc website and i chanced upon quotes that the club staff have ever come out with.I thought I'll post 20 each day if possible.Cos being a great liverpool fan,these quotes hold alot of meaning.So here it goes:

1)"Some people believe football is a matter of life and death, I am very disappointed with that attitude. I can assure you it is much, much more important than that." Bill Shankly.
--This quote still remains one of the most talked abt quotes up till to this modern day.Football is more impt than life and death.

2)"If Everton were playing at the bottom of the garden, I'd pull the curtains." Bill Shankly.
--This one is less heard of but still feels gd seeing it cos it invovles Everton,those bluenose buggers across Stanley Park.Down with EVERTON!!!

3)"The trouble with referees is that they know the rules, but they don't know the game." Bill Shankly.
-Very true.They just follow what has been set.

4)"A lot of football success is in the mind. You must believe that you are the best and then make sure that you are. In my time at Liverpool we always said we had the best two teams in Merseyside, Liverpool and Liverpool reserves." Bill Shankly.
--This is one of THE best quotes ever from the great man himself.It's just self-explanatory.

5) "If you're in the penalty area and don't know what to do with the ball, put it in the net and we'll discuss the options later." Bob Paisley.
--If Cisse,Moro and Crouch do this,Bob would be so proud.

6)"Liverpool was made for me and I was made for Liverpool." Bill Shankly.
--What it all means to the legend of LFC.

7)"Liverpool without European football is like a banquet without wine." Roy Evans.
--Stating the obvious.Very well put by Roy Evans.

8)"Mind you, I've been here during the bad times too - one year we came second." Bob Paisley.
--See.Who says Liverpool didn't have bad times?We actually finished 2nd last time!

9)"Sometimes I feel I'm hardly wanted in this Liverpool team. If I get two or three saves to make, I've had a busy day." Ray Clemence.
--Summarizes how dominant the club were back then.Say it ain't so Ray!

10)"Anyone who doesn't learn from Ian Rush needs shooting." Robbie Fowler.
--Exactly Robbie.Who can't learn anything from the club's most prolific striker ought to be shot!

11)"Liverpool are magic, Everton are tragic." Emlyn Hughes.
--Need I elaborate?

12)"Should the aggregate score be level after 90 minutes, extra time will be played." Fulham's matchday programme for the second leg of the Littlewoods Cup tie in 1986-87. Liverpool were 10-0 up from the first leg.
--Al Fayed would have died on the spot if he had owned Fulham at that time.

13)"There are those who say maybe I should forget about football. Maybe I should forget about breathing." Gerard Houllier.
--They say you can take a man out of football.But you can NEVER take football out of a man.

14) "If you are first you are first. If you are second you are nothing." Bill Shankly.
--Another great saying from Mr.Shankly.

15)"Don't worry Alan. At least you'll be able to play close to a great team!" Bill Shankly to Alan Ball after he signed for Everton.
--Now isn't that cool?Being able to watch Liverpool play across from Stanley Park eh Alan?

16)"It's there to remind our lads who they're playing for, and to remind the opposition who they're playing against." Bill Shankly about the 'This is Anfield' plaque.
--Very symbolic.It just makes me wanna go there and touch it.

17)"It broke my heart to leave Liverpool." Kenny Dalglish.
--Just how much it meant to Kenny for him to leave the club.

18)"Ay, here we are with problems at the top of the league." Bill Shankly suggesting to a journalist that Liverpool were in difficulties.
--Mr.Journalist?Are you daft?!

19) "At Liverpool we never accept second best." Kenny Dalglish.
--Just shows the high standards Liverpool have.Even the current batch can't match the 70s or 80s.

20)"We will beat them one day, I can promise you that!" Gerard Houllier on Manchester United.
--And didn't you do so eh Monsieur Houllier?

Thats it for today.Quite tiring actually.Hehz.will be back with more.

2005-09-08T18:16:00.000-07:00

----Non existent burns----

Man,the holidays are almost over.So sianz.1 week just pass by so fast.Well tmr probably going out to watch movie with the usual people before heading to Novena for the gig.

Argh.My head hurts,my nose's bleeding and hell,I'm just way over my head now.Thinking abt too much.Jac was right.And I think alot of pple are.I na de qi dan fang bu xia.Literally meaning I can pick up but not put down.

Haiz.I dunno what's wrong with me la.That's why I think I'm so screwed up mentally already.I'm insane.Verge of going nuts.Going kookoo.Lol.I'm so,so messed up.Wonder if I'm going to be ok when I'm older.Or am I going to check myself into IMH?Heh,I think I'm just overstressed like what Tanya told her friends.Thats it.I'm just overstressed.

Bleah.I dunno what else to say anymore.I'm off.

2005-09-06T20:49:00.000-07:00

----Non existent Love----

You are still a whisper on my lips.
A feeling at my fingertips.
Pulling at my skin.

You leave me when I'm at my worst.
Feeling as if I've been cursed.
Bitter cold winter.

Days go by and still I think of you.
Days when I couldn't live my live without you.
Days go by and still I think of you.
Days when I couldn't live my life without you.
Without you.
Without you.
Without you.

--This is actually part of a dance track called Days Go By by Dirty Vegas.But it's recognised as a song cause those lines I've typed out are actually repeated throughout the song.The got a techno song I currently listen to.Show Me The Light by Lunaspace.Pris asked me to go listen to that so I did and I quite like it.Which you must understand is quite a surprise cause I dun really like techno music,but that particular song is quite nice.

So today when to do some of my hw with Ron and Harrison before going play soccer.quite fun la.That's really abt it.

2005-09-02T16:41:00.000-07:00

----Did I really?----

So ok,Wed was the day before teacher's day and ACES Day.so the stupid school made us report to school then walk all the way to the stadium.So get there,watched 5 soccer matches.Sec1,Sec2,Sec3 finals.And Staff/PSG v Sec3s and 2nd grp of Staff/PSG v sec5s.Was ok.The most interesting match IMO was the sec2 final.end to end stuff.Great game.Was disappointed at the standard of the sec3 one though.expected it to be more interesting.But was so boring I wasn't even paying attention.Then after that before everything ended,the NPCC cadets performed to the beat of Usher's Yea!.Refer to Shannon Zhang's blog for pictures on that day.

Then after that,Ron followed me to ATS.what a kind fellow that guy is.Follow me there then spend abt more than an hr doing nth but watch me and my frens try to find our teachers.And he didnt even complain once.Thnx bro.You're a great fren.So at ATS,met Ivan,Julian,Jin Jun,Zachary,Tiong Hui,Alfred,Ginette,Jasmine(not an exclassmate,but rather sumone i knew from taking the same bus i think.or i think Andrea told her abt me or smth.Not too sure.),Jacqueline,Alisa,Daniel,Gerald,Zewei and Andrea.Was great seeing all my friends again.Makes me want to make this Nov's tentative outing work.Me and Jac are planning it i guess.But Lek Wee say maybe Sept also meet up.But i let him plan.If not alot of things I plan I die la.Anyway all the things I plan dun work.2e2 class fund didn't work,BCC Alumni meeting didn't work.Need I say more?Oh.Daniel is so freak sia.Grow like hell liddat.Used to be quite short back in p6.But now,he's almost the same height as me!Wth!Growth spurt!.

After a while,I regretted going back.Cos was like kinda weird seeing Andrea again.I know I last saw her this year.But was like.Dunno why this time I see her,felt very strange.Haven't really thought abt her nowadays.I confided in Ron,Shirley and Jac abt this matter.Ron and Shirley dun really know the whole story.But Jac knows cos she and Shi Yuan used to be my confidants in the past and they would help me out so many times.But Ronald did raise a gd point.He asked me:"I tot u gave up on her already? or have you?"And I've been asking myself the whole of today.I kept thinking abt seeing Andrea again ytd.I mean after all,she was the first person I truly had very deep feelings for.And Ron did set me thinking.Did I really give up?Or did I just try to move on without really letting go of the past?Now I'm a guy who is very sentimental for those who dun know.I think alot abt the past.What was said.What was done.So I just asking myself now.Did I really let go?

Jac also set me thinking abt alot stuff.She told me to follow my heart.Just like Shirley told me to search deep for the answer.I thought abt what Jac said.And I told her.What if I follow my heart and decide to hold for Andrea?She's moved on with her life.Won't it end up like the past?I took a whole 2 yrs to get over Andrea.or so I thought I did.Or what if I followed my heart and hold on for that certain someone which not many people know abt?What diff does it make when both sides are exactly the same case?Argh.So freaking confused.Abt so much things.I'm just glad the Common Test is over and the Sept holidays are here.Just want to take a gd R&R and have a gd time and get my mind of things.And the worse thing,I'm taking it out on my friends.After the movie with Ben,Shir,Harrison,Jas and Bryan,I sorta got into a bad mood over all these.So Jas,does it answer your question abt what's wrong?

Haiz.Hmm.stomach growling.Didnt really eat lunch today.Hmm.I'm off then.Ciaoz.

2005-08-30T21:16:00.000-07:00

---.Plunging into the abyss of darkness.---

So today had e maths paper.max marks is 19/25.shld pass.I'm quite confident this time arnd.Woo.Hahaha.Then had a rather boring day.

After school supposed to go Charles' hse for bass lesson.but i backed out in the end.wasn't in the mood for learning laz.So went with Ron,Bryan,Joel Tan and Harrison instead.Ron went to play soccer at the court with the rest while I,Bryan,Harrison and Joel went for lunch.Then actually planned to meet Ben,Shirley and Jas at Thomson Plaza.but Shirley called,said it was too far.so in the end went to J8.walk arnd do nth much.sat at Food Junction for quite a while.Then left to go play soccer at Bishan Park.Woo!Thoroughly enjoyed myself today.Played until shuang sia.I and Ben teamed against Jas,Shirley,Bryan and Harrison.I think we thrashed them.LOL.but then after a while tired la.Cos 2 v 4.Sure get tired chasing after the ball.
Then played until 7+ before they left.Harrison followed to send ahem someone home.So his bag is still at my hse.Hahah.maybe i shld snoop into his bag.Nah,my brother.Shldn't do that.Hhaha.

So yeap.here blogging.Planning with my exclassmates to go out tmr.Havent met them in a long time liaoz.But a coupla pple not going.Jac not going.She,i think,going out with her frens to celebrate her bday.So i take this oppurtunity to wish her a happy 15th Bday!Woo!You're one yr older now!wahhaha.Then Jasmine.From 6G ATS 2002.Anderson Sec now.Not to be confused with the one from Orchid Park.Yup.Dunno whether she's going.Then there's Ann.K la,she not my exclassmate.But then she also not going back.Got tuition?Yea.Then i think Ze Wei not going.But then Kwang Yong,Ivan and Lek Wee going back.Along with Shi Yuan.So yea,will meet up with them.

Hmm.ok then.I'm gonna pia my FM liaoz.Gonna make Madrid win the Primera Liga with this freaking power line up:

Casillas
Salgado--Carragher--Huelgera--Carlos

Beckham--Zidane--Baptista--Figo

Owen/Morientes/Raul--Robinho/Ronaldo/Noh Alam Shah

Signed Carra for 14mill from Liverpool.Cost me almost 10mill more than his actual valuation.Then paid Fenerbache 15mill for Robinho.Yet to see if that gamble of 15mill is worth it yet.Played for Brazil in Gold Cup and got injured.-.-.Then Bapstista cost me 18mill.I signed him the other time in another game and he was brill.so yea.hope he does well again.Wahaha.

2005-08-28T01:02:00.000-07:00

Gone.Just like that.In the space of 10minutes,all the happiness I've shared disappears.

Haiz.It's been 2 hours since I last saw my sis at the airport.Man,I miss her already.Can't believe 2mnths passed so fast.It seems just like ytd that my family and I met her at the airport to welcome her home.2mnths just flew by like that.2mnths.Haiz.

Well,first time since the 3 yrs that I've sent her off to the airport that I cried while on the way to Changi.You might go::Wah Lao.15 yrs old still cry.Big baby."Whatever.You don't know how much my sister means to me lo.She's the one who has been there for me all the while lo.She's the only person whom I've talked abt my problems with.Other than some of my friends of course.So it's like.Kinda hard for me to take in the fact she's leaving and I can't see her again for another 9mnths!Wth.

So pple,for the next few days or weeks,tolong hor if I in bad mood or very unhappy.Not that I want,but just that,I'm going through readjustment of my life without my sis again.So I might break down out of the blue or suddenly become more temperamental than I usually am,dun hold it against me.Plus,now exams and all and I'm already not in the right frame of mind to sit for the damn common test.So all this things are kinda taking its toll on me mentally.So yea,thanks for trying to understand.Really appreciate it.

On a lighter note,I realise that everytime my sis leaves Singapore,I and my dad will try to set our differences aside so that she won't worry abt us.Futhermore,my mum will be flying over at the start of Sept.That will mean leaving the 2 most volatile pple in the family alone.Yea so that's kinda not of a good idea.But my mum needs to help my sis settle down for the yr,so can't be help.But I promise I will try to compromise with my dad on certain issues and not be so rude to him anymore.Yes,that will be my promise to my sis.To try work things out with my dad.

Oh and Liverpool won the UEFA Super Cup in Monaco's Stade Louis II.The scoreline was a very flattering 3-1 over CSKA Moscow.We deserve to win,IMO but not by 2 goals.Garcia was wasteful.Morientes was starved of excellent service.Gerrard's tenacity and drive was missed.But Zenden showed what a player he was.Carra,captain in the absence of Steive G,was as usual reliable and a rock in defence besides Hyypia.Josemi,back from injury,impressed me.If he keeps that up,he'll win my support for him back.Cisse did well when called upon.Great goals although both were lucky.Reina,sorta to be blamed for Daniel Carvalho's goal,but other than that had a solid game.Warnock was unlucky to lose out to Riise for the starting 11 left back slot.But overall,the team did well and brought home the second trophy for the calendar year of 2005.Carragher lifted the trophy as standin captain.And what a night it was.
There was another reason to celebrate as Liverpool captain Steven Gerrard picked UEFA's MVP award for his contributions to Liverpool's unexpected CL win in Istanbul in May.This season's CL has gotten under way with Gerrard leading the topscorer's board with his 6goals against TNS,Kaunas and CSKA Sofia already.The grp stages have been drawn and Liverpool are in Group G.It consists of Chelsea,Anderlecht and Real Betis.All the best to Liverpool for the upcoming European campaign.

So it's late.102 in the morning.I'm off to bed cos in 12hrs time,I have a tuition class to attend.

2005-08-22T18:37:00.000-07:00

Now I'm alone again,
Nowhere to go,no one to turn to.
Now the night is near,
I can make believe she is here.

Sometimes I walk alone at night,
when everyone else is sleeping.
I think of her and then,
I'm happy with the company I'm keeping.
The city goes to bed,
And I can live inside my head.

On my own,
Pretending she's beside me.
All alone I walk with her till morning.
In the rain the pavement shines like silver.
All the lights are misty in the river.
In the darkness the trees are full of starlight
And all I see is her and me forever and forever.

And I know it's only in my mind,
That I'm talking to myself and not to her.
And,although I know that she cannot see,
Stil I say there's a way for us.

I love her
But when the night is over,
She is gone,the river's just a river
Without her the world around me changes
The trees are bare,
And everywhere the streets are full of strangers

I love her,
But everyday I'm learning
All my life I've only been pretending
Without me,her world will go on turning
The world is full of happiness that I have never known.
I lover her,I love her,I love her...
But only on my own.

This is how I feel about you.But I guess you'll never know.

2005-08-20T21:46:00.000-07:00

I HATE YOU.

I hate your guts.I hate you so much.Sometimes I wish I wasn't your son.Cause being your child sucks.Especially your second child.It's a bullshit life and the worse I could have gotten.

You so damn fucking unreasonable.When I shout,I'm being unfilial.When you shout,you're trying to show concern.When I can't hear you,I'm being rude.When you can't hear me,you couldn't hear me.When I crack lame jokes,they are stupid to you.When you crack lame jokes,they are the "funniest" anyone has ever heard.

And being the younger sibling to a University student doesn't help much either does it you fucking jerk.Oh it's Charlene is in university studying overseas.Charlene got straight As so often in school.The man who calls himself my father,don't you think that's pressure enough without you expecting me to follow in the steps of your dear daughter?No,obviously not asshole.Every oppurtunity you just have to raise the topic of wanting me to go university.Just accept the damn fact that I'm not such a good student dammit!You think I dont know that nowadays it is damn fucking hard to get a good paying job without a uni cert?I'm not that dumb.

And stop forcing me to do things I do not wish too.When I say I don't feel like eating something,stop asking me over and over again!No means fucking no you idiot!I mean c'mon you dumb fuck!I don't want to sleep early means I don't.You force me to sleep also no point when I can't sleep.

And you don't even care about my day or my life.First things out of your mouth everyday when you come home is asking me whether I've studied.What the fucking hell!Not even a simple line of "how was your day?".Fuck this.And nowadays,every single time it's possible,you keep asking me to study.I know it's for my own good.But every single damn time?!Even me going out with my friends is not allowed now.What the fucking shit.

I seriously hate you.If I had the choice,I would follow Harrison to KL and stay with him.At least I know I can count on Harrison for a listening ear.What about you?You and your stupid old fashioned mind.Even Sis getting a ear peircing in the past was considered wrong by you.Get on with the times you fucker.Stop living in the past.

Even mum and sis are quite irritated by your fucking way.In Malta,do you still remember what happen?You and your stupid temper almost caused the family to fall apart!And you couldn't even bring yourself to admit it!You claim that I'm stubborn and unreasonable.Well,we can all see where I got those genes from now can we!You're even more unreasonable than I am!You always raise your voice at us for no reason and claim that we started it!What the fuck!I still remember you raising your voice at me over nothing and you said I was the one who started raising my voice at you.And yet,in the end who made the first move to apologise?Me!You know how glad I was to leave for China for 1 week in June despite wanting to stay because of something?It meant that I would 1 week free from your nagging and fucking attitude.I fucking hate you.

Honestly,I feel that my friends are more important to me than you are.At least I know I can confide in people like Harrison and Shirley.I'd rather talk to them about my problems than I do it with you.

2005-08-19T23:01:00.000-07:00

woo.....today had a great day in school......apart from the fact that Ben keep insulting me........

I mean like what the hell lo....insult until liddat.....nvm......bro lehz.....no grudges hor?...

so like after school went bryan's hse.....watch land of the dead.....watch until sian.....ron almost fell asleep and harrison was already unwell.....then he spread his cold to me and ron.....

so like......at bryan's hse......usual pple were there.....the guys,jas,shirley and pris.Dunno lehz..still kinda weird seeing pris nowadays.I'm glad she's there la...but just feels weird...dunno how to explain it.

so after that left arnd 4,5+?wen to play soccer..played until shuang sia.....had 2 chances on goal one straight at adi....the other hit the upright!.....argh....missed by that few centimetres...if not confirm goal liao......bleahz....

so after that went my aunty's hse for dinner and came back..

crap tmr got english oral.....think im gonna screw it up sia.....blehz

2005-08-18T20:38:00.000-07:00

today was a so-so kinda day bahz.....

didnt sleep too well.....dunno why....but at least i slept.....

then in school......got back chem class test result....just pass......bleahz......have a feeling i will die during Common Test.

Oh ya!Hhahahahah.......Tan Yan Ho say I got potential to get A1 for history!.....and xavier,shawn,sean and perhaps adi......but so cool........got praised by a teacher.....wahahha....kk enough...im going nuts....so cool...

then after school had POA remedial till like.....3.....then went Bryan's hse...

Reached there and found Shirley,Jas and Pris already there...to me was like damn weird lo....just seeing Pris...dunno why..its like....just feels chao weird to see her..then after that they played collide by howie day.....and i sorta became...unhappy....i just dun like that song anymore....ever since...what happened a few mnths ago..

so after that....arnd 445.....went home....before going to play badminton with harrison.....whoo..played til like 7+....quite fun.....

so came back,ate dinner and here blogging.......thats abt it for today....

2005-08-17T19:53:00.000-07:00

well......sorted out some stuff last night....

might have lost someone but I gained a mei in Pris!!woo.......shld i be happy?i guess so shldnt i.....after all she was avoiding me the day before....

Well now i guess everything is settled,i can concentrate on my studies and the upcoming CA2....

well......guess thats it for today bahz......dun really feel like blogging much today..

anyway Les Miserables rocks....listen to it!Chao nice

2005-08-16T18:09:00.000-07:00

What can I say?What do you want me to say?

You think I bloody hell don't know that what we have can probably never last?!Do you think that it's easy just cause you didnt tell me how you felt?Just because I don;t know anything makes it less hard on me?I'm not a complete idiot you know....and I'm not some heartless jerk.

It's not easy....knowing that you were there.I didnt say many things to you because it didn't feel right at the bloody time!I mean,could I say that I loved you and you wouldn't feel weird?or if I told you that I thought abt you the whole day for the past week and you didnt react?Did you not think I took all this into consideration?You know,for what its worth,it was hard on me.Thoughts abt you float into my mind and stay there.How do you think I feel when I see you and I dun say a word to you?It damn fucking kills me inside...cause it sucks not being able to say something to you at all.It gnaws away at my stomach.

I'm at the end of my bloody wits abt what to do.I fret the whole day through.Even when I'm laughing with my frens,the pain strikes from within.Not knowing what I truly did to you makes it even worse.You wun tell me at all.How do you expect me to feel any gd?!...

What makes it worse is that you dun even seem to bloody care......

2005-08-13T17:23:00.000-07:00

I dunno what's wrong with me nowadays...always so moody and like my sis says..I've become very antisocial...always spending my time using the computer,on the phone,in my room...

I always thought the fault could be found in my growing up yrs....but i realise that it's all that I've done that made me this way.And these while,the consequences have taken its effect on me.

I've changed.I'm not the same person people like Shi Yuan,Andrea,Lek Wee,Jacqueline etcetc. have known me to be.I'm not the same person that Suresh,Kenneth Sim,Raymond,Nicholas Chia know me to be.I've come to be a person that no-one understands anymore.But I'm glad I have confidants in pple like Harrison.But recently,I've been asking him the same question of what to do.I realise now that he can't help me.No-one can.Maybe its my mind playing tricks on me.Making me think too much on certain things.

I know I keep asking her the same question now and then.But everytime the reply just goes...I dunno/Emx or she just doesnt say anything.And at that point,my mind thinks too much and I know I shldn't think of the worse possible explanation.But I guess that's just who I am: a pessimistic person.I always think the worse without thinking the best.Like recently I approached Shirley for help on certain matters..and she gave me the optimistic viewpoint of the situation.Which is why I'm glad I got to know her better.

But now,the situation it seems has gotten worse.I know some things can't be rushed into.I'm trying not to do that.I told her I wouldn't.I said that I would wait till we got to know each other better.But some parts of me just want to know.Just want to know how you really feel.But I guess it's just not possible when you don't understand how it feels.Thinking abt you everytime.It's stupid.It's weird.But I can't help it.Thoughts of you just rush into my head and stays.But I guess things will only stay that way.....I know you can't read this post..but I guess even if you do..nothing will change.

---Insanity feels the minds of insane people nowadays.----

2005-08-10T20:16:00.000-07:00

Bleah.....stupid tagboard wun work anymore....I'll prob remove it asap.

So today went out with Ben,Shirley,Jas,Bryan,Ron and Harrison.Supposed to meet at 1 at PS for lunch.Go there.Met Ron,Bryan and Ben.Tot Harrison coming soon.So called him ask him where he was.Bloody hell...can tell me he still at home!We plan ytd and i told him last night..meet at PS at 1!And yet at arnd 1320 he still at home?!....-.-...

Then on the way to PS received Priscilla's reply.Not going.So called her to try and persuade her 1 last time.Still fail so bo bian.Nvm lo.Still got other chances to go out bahz.Like she said: Someday.Someday.

So after that went Shaw House to watch movie.Watched Stealth at 1705....meaning we had abt 2 hrs to spare.So just walk arnd do nth.

After that the movie finished at 1905...then Ben need to rush for tuition.So everyone rush home and I reached home arnd 1930 bahz.Stealth quite nice lo.

Crap la....tmr must go back school.Think of school jiu sian liao....Haiz....Then later also must do hw/revision....Sianz.....nvm....maybe I'll call/sms her to talk..if she's free lo....maybe I'll call la.....used up half of my free sms liao....siao liao...exceed then die liao......must tahan and not sms that often liao..

2005-08-10T10:06:00.000-07:00

Wah paing.....headache sia........got only.....a few hrs of sleep nowadays.......head pain head pain.......argh.......bleah.....

So well anyway today gonna watch movie with my bros and the girls.Dunno abt Aloy though.Oh i'd like to mention abt some assholic jerk who keeps insulting Aloy on his tagboard.Listen REX@..... u bloody asswipe.....Dun mess arnd with my bro k.I've said this before and I'll say it again: Mess with him and you've got a hell lot to pay for.Watch ur back.

Ok that aside.....gonna meet the guys fro lunch at ps at arnd 1...while Jas,Shirley and Junmei will go to town first to buy stuff i think.Then we'll be watching Bewitched.Then hopefully Pris can go la.Spent i think.....an hr + just trying to persuade her to go till my dad got angry with me..-.-.So anyway...hope she can go....if she dun go then not fun liao.Haiz.

Ya i think i will end here.....dunno what else to say....

2005-08-09T13:56:00.000-07:00

well......happy national day pple of Singapore!Our small little nation is 40!!!whoo!!!

Thought today will be a gd day....but then last night something was said and set a really bad tone for the day i guess.Anyway thanks alot to Harrison and Shirley.For helping me out with my troubles and understanding and giving advice and helping me decipher what was said.Thanks alot.Like i said,I'm glad I have friends like you 2.Really appreciate it.

So anyway I'm going to my grandparents hse today...celebrate a little i guess and will be back tonight to discuss the plans for tmr.So....if any of my bros are reading this...try to be free tonight to plan tmr's outing yea?..Thnx.and er....if im not there......sms me when details are done.

Anyway,thanks again Shirley and Harrison.For everything you've done this morning.Thanks Tanya for putting a smile on my face when I was feeling down.

Cheers pple!Enjoy your day...

2005-08-08T19:35:00.000-07:00

well......had a rather ok day i guess........expected it to be better...but well.things dun always turn out like they shld or u want them to do they....

Ever wake up one day feeling that the very day could be possibly the most fun day that you would ever have in ur short life only for things to go wrong during the day?Well,it happened to me.
The day started off well enough....got school early....pia my poa mcq...then went for national day celebration in the hall.Guess the rain shld have been the indication that the day wasn't going to turn out well.Had mass,some percussion performance and Eunice Olsen actually came to our school and gave a short speech.But wah lao...seriously,the students st SGSS are screwed la.Esp.the sec1 and 2's.Bloody messed up pple.Future of Singapore?I think my batch is the last normal batch.But then every yr's batch probably think the same way.My sis thinks her '84 batch is the last normal batch.So i guess to each his/her own.So kena held back lo......till like...20+ mins past stated time.then after that had to go AVA room for some carnival@ marina thingy.then after that waited for adi to do his chem test before supposedly heading to play LAN.but then change plans again and went to Bryan's hse and slack.So slacked till arnd 1 before we went to meet ben at the busstop.
Then headed to yishun to go OPSS......ate macs and waited for them to finish eating.But then....Pris and Junmei decided to go off.So the rest of us went to PS to play arcade.Then spent alot of time watching Adi play.Pro-ded la he.I guess thats pretty much my day.Nth too bad huh?....

Its just that....I don't feel happy at all.I know I'm not depressed at all.I can smile and laugh and joke arnd.But perhaps all I'm doing is like what Ann told me ytd.Forcing myself to be happy though I'm not.On the way home,I had lots of time to think over about alot of things.I just think:Is it really worth it?Is life really worth carrying on when the will to go on isn't there?When it just feels like,nothing right is going for you and the feeling just sucks to the core?Perhaps its just the turmoil of the feelings that I'm going through that cause me to feel this way.I've been diff recently.Ain't exactly to old cheery self back in p5/6.Maybe I've just realised that the world isn't as carefree as my mind once thought it was.Let's put my problems in perspective shall we?Well,using very cliched explanation I shall use Person A,B and C.After all this you can say what you like abt me,guess all you want.You read this and make ur own conclusions.Say I'm desperate,say I'm messed up,say I'm a jerk whatever.I dun really care abt what you think of me anymore.k well.....Person A thinks his life has turned for the better.Has gd friends arnd him and someone who he cares abt,Person B.However,Person C soons returns into his life throwing everything off balance.And now,Person A is confused over his feelings.He likes Person B but loved Person C but doesnt know their feelings towards him.Sure,feelings are to be developed overtime and not rushed into.But sometimes,just trying to develop these feelings takes alot of time and effort and Person A doesnt really know if the effort and time needed are there for him.He wishes for Person B to say smth but he noes its just impossible when he doesnt do anything to help it along.Meanwhile,Person C doesnt know how Person A feels.And old feelings are creeping back in on Person A 's side.So can you see his dilemma?

But still I'd like to thank a few pple arnd me thats has made it easier.

Harrison: Thnx alot bro.Our friendship since the start of the yr has progressed so much its just been amazing.We've been through rough times together both on ur part and my part.And i always can count on you to be there for me.Really appreciate ur support and friendship man.Thnx once again.

Benedict Tan(3e6 StGabs): Another bro of mine.Sure,we've always shouted at each other of little things but till now I dun think our friendship has been affected.You're a loyal friend who really knows how to be there for a person when he's at his worse.Really grateful you're my friend and brother.

Ronald: Haha....this guy.. can hardly stop feeling happy arnd him.He's just a great guy to hang out with and is really smart.Just need to noe when to apply it!lol....Thnx for being a gd fren this past 8 mnths though we only got to know wach other this yr.

My One and Only Sis: Thank you.Just thank you for understanding my feelings.I know things for you haven't been fine but yet you still take time to understand my anguish and troubles.The things we shared will always remain close to my heart and I will treasure our relationship as siblings.I apologise for all the trouble I've caused you when I was younger.Love ya lots sis.

Aloy: Another friend who can really be relied upon.Never let me down when I needed a listening ear and a helping hand.Truly truly a great friend to have.Thank you.

Shirley,Jasmine and Priscilla:You 3 have really made my life more interesting this few wks.Of course there have been problems cos of reasons but I'm glad thats over and we're all friends again.I hope our friendship can become as strong as mine with the guys.Shirley,you've been a great friend despite not knowing you too well.You've apologised for things that you couldnt have control over.And its just gd knowing that you are a friend of mine.Jasmine,after what happened,i guess our friendship wun be the same as before.But Im glad everything has been settled and hope our friendship will be better.Pris,ah Pris.Thank you for just being in my life.It was a great pleasure knowing someone like you.I've gotten to know you better this few weeks and I'm just really glad and happy that we are on gd terms.I hope our friendship can move forward to another step.

All of this pple really make up my life nowadays.For all my old friends,I've not forgotten you.Thank you all for being there sometimes when I need help.Really just thank you so much.

----Mad rantings of a raving lunatic----

2005-08-05T19:32:00.000-07:00

Music: Over It-Rufio

Whoo.....Over It rocks.....

Well,these few days been kinda crappy lo.....except for last night.It was rather ok compared to recent times.

Ytd: Found out abt some stuff that really made me,Harrison and Ben kinda pissed off and lifeless.K la for me I shldnt have been affected whereas Ben and Harrison had gd reasons for being angry.I mean..what the hell was bryan trying to do?!going to shirley's hse with jasmine and pris?ain't he supposed to be"sick"?.......whole load of bullshit bryan......whole load of bullshit....Cos of these crap thats been happening recently...ytd was kinda sucky.....Ben,Harrison and I were like damn pissed off....so we decided what to do during school.So after school ended,went Shawn's hse to do project.But so diao,his com crashed and we had to make use of an old com that he had.Managed to get most things done leaving the detailed writeup on the prototype for Ron to do.
After that went Bishan,thnx to Shawn's dad for driving us there.Changed and met Harrison with Adi adn Ron at my block.Proceeded to go City Hall cos Ron forgot to bring his ticket and had to get his bro to pass it to him.So arnd 615 I and Ron went to the MRT station to meet his bro.We saw Terence,Bong,Safith and Sean.Dressed up till like....whoa!undescrible...but was style..So after that Ron got his ticket,met up with Ben and Glen before heading to VCH.Didnt know how to get there so we kinda just walked 1 big round by asking this rickshaw uncle for help.Finally managed to get there.
Reach there and saw many familiar faces.....Kenny,Ding Jie,Yong Chao,Yong Xiang and his gf I think,a coupla of the scouts,teachers,OMs and many others.Then after that the bell for the opening of the theatre rang...but I and Ben couldn't go in cos he had Shirley's ticket and I had Priscilla's.So in the end all wait outside.Then aiyo,Mr. Tan,ever since the China trip keep ji siao-ing me lo abt my "best friend"Ms Cheng.....I tot our "best friend" is Subash?lol...
So wait lo.....then we decided we go in first...left Shirley and Priscilla's ticket with Mr.Tuang before we went in.After like...2 mins of going in,Harrison calls me and tells me to go out and wait for Pris.So go out and ask Mr.Tuang whether they arrived already.Just nice I go out and they arrived.with Bryan....-.-.So i took the tickets back from Mr.Tuang and passed them to Shirley and Pris.So,Pris sat next to me while the rest moved up to sit with Harrison and Ben.Then intro-ed Pris to her "Son" Ronald....lol...Band did a great job.This yr wasnt as boring as last yr cos I rmb falling asleep last yr.After that had a 20min interval.Met Clara and talked a while before the bell rang for the start of the vocal performance.Pris went to sit with Shirley cos Jas and Bryan left.Vocal was gd....great performance..but I loved the Band's medley of Phantom of the Opera...was damn gd.Vocal also got funny parts....esp.the one where Melvin Gaspar pretended to kiss Jasmine Goh to the song Kiss the Girl.lol...then also got Godzilla!who was actually Yong Hui in disguise!lol....joke sia!.....lol
Then after performance...supposed to go for dinner with Ben,Glen,Boi,Ron,Harrison,Shirley and Pris.But then Adi need to zao and didnt know how to get to the MRT station.so the rest went with him to the station while I and Ben waited for Pris and Shirley.Then after a while,we left for the station.Took to Bishan for dinner/supper.But then like at City Hall,Priscilla's mum called.So she had to go home and couldnt join us for dinner and Shirley also the same.So,in the end was all guys...then like so late liao. and next day had chem test.all of us wanted to pon lo.....but didnt la....we very righteous u noe.....lol.Ended the day feeling very tired and sleepy.
Today..was like lifeless the whole day......the reason why..i wun say......but harrison noes......right bro?......yea.......keep to urself yea....
Tonight I guess gonna conference with the guys abt thonning and maybe the whole messed up case......maybe i'll call Pris....but maybe not...Shirley told me she's working...and then she didn't get much sleep recently.So i guess see how lo.

2005-08-03T18:38:00.000-07:00

Haiz.......fuck this few days la.....bloody piece of shit life that i've got......

It's just bloody freaking fucked up.Everything is just screwing up in front of my eyes......bloody life.....fuck it.

Bloody Anne Low.....think the frigging project damn easy to do ar?!keep rejecting it.....bloody hell.......business not right cos must use formal font size 12....bloody hell if u told us earlier it would be better right?!then now we must redo parts of it......getting damn pissed off with the damn bloody project.....

Bryan and Harrison.Bloody situation......Bryan's fucked up.....Harrison's screwed.Simple as that.Leave them alone Bryan....you cause too much trouble already.You think I'm the one being nosy?Think again.You're the one causing Harrison all this trouble with you-know-who(name not put due to Harrison's request).Fuck all this....now it seems tomorrow will be ruined.All cos of this fucking matter.It's just freaking bullshit.If Bryan didnt stick his nose into this,everything would be fine.

Common test coming soon.Fucking hell so soon.Im gonna screw it up damn bad cos of everything......fucking shit.....why do we need all this bloody tests......1 mid yr and 1 end of yr is enough....It's just rubbish....fuck all this.

You think its hard to not think abt u and him?obviously its hard but just how hard u dun know...the feeling tears you up inside and swallows your mind like nothing.I spen the whole night last night thinking abt it.Why would you like a guy would wanted to severe our friendship over love?I mean what the fuck.....if u like a guy like this.then he's never gonna have any close friends..He's loved you for years,I for months.....but fuck i mean him?!bloody hell.I'd rather you like wj than him.He wants to end our friendship?by all means go ahead.Im sick of him and his bloody attitude.Study VS big la.Smart la.Fuck him la.One thing though,if you're happy with him then im happy for you.And that's something that fucker couldnt do.So to him....i got 2 words..: FUCK YOU.

Only good thing was the soccer i played today.....for once really forgot all my problems.Problems with her,school and life.Just plain fun.Set up Ron twice for his hattrick......woo....

Like I told you last night....Life's fucked up innit.Screw life.

Mum,Dad you might read this someday.....and might be shocked at what I've said and the words I've used.But well too bad,its my blog.....my rants,my thoughts,my memories.....

2005-07-30T11:31:00.000-07:00

haha.......so much for me and harrison's promise of not going out after school....in the end also went out.....

Thursday:went to Bryan's hse after school with Ben and Harrison......then Shirley came after a while.......Jasmine supposed to come but she got backache......so didnt go school.......then we stayed there till like.....5?then all went home......

Friday:School ended 1.15....but I,Harrison,Terence,Ben,Daryl,Jian En,Bong,Joey and Sanmugan kena held back by TML.......bloody hell........just cos I nv do hw liddat liao......u think only I,Ben and Harrison nv do ar?!Pls lo....u go see other pple's books la fucking bitch.......now like under probation liao...she watching our every move during lessons...fuck this la.......then after school went to MRT station wait for Harrison's Jasmine and Shirley.Ben couldnt go cos he had NCC training.so went bryan's hse....challenged Ron to Winning Eleven.....Lost both complete matches 1-0....Whoo!Damage Limitation successful.lol...then after that used to the com lo....then was using my Msn when Shirley went to check out her fren's blog...then I didnt know what they tped for my Msn nick lo......then i saw.it was :ilovepriscillawong. wah lao..damn malu lehz......liddat anyhow type.then after that alisa even asked whether it was true......after that sianz lo....listen music....then Adi came and played marvel v capcom against Bryan......sure Bryan lose....cos Adi was like damn pro.Then arnd 430.......all zao except Adi......so Ron took bus home while Harrison sent Jasmine and Shirley back to Yishun.

Last night....smsed Pris to tell her couldnt get ticket seats near Ben,Shirley and Harrison,Jasmine.Then she asked me to call her....so call lo...then ask her if ok abt the tickets.....she sais its ok...meaning the seating will be Boi,Me,Pris,Ron and Glen...ya.....no where near the rest.Then we just sorta....talked.got to know her more.....which was gd la...

then arnd 11.....i hung up cos some show she wanted to watch had started.....so decided not to bother her....then after a while......went to slp......thats abt it lo......then woke up at arnd 11 today.......bleahz........still feel a bit tired.....lol

oh ya....i got 14/20 for History!!!Whoo!!!Germany rocks!!!wahahaha

2005-07-27T23:00:00.000-07:00

duno why.....just feel....lost....trapped......like im being buried alive......smoething's just gnawing away at my mind.......i have no idea what......

somebody......anybody......just help me...rid me of the pain......pls.......help me....im begging you.....pls.......

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2005-07-27T19:43:00.000-07:00

Piang.........10th day in a row stayed out late....

Today,tot my class sing damn loud for school song liao cos all the other classes looking at us.But Mr.Pang didn't find it gd enough.Kao.....cannot please that man one sia.....

then after PC and English,had PE......sian tried to do SBJ....so close yet so far.....nvm next week try again.Kao....Alvin Tan,you what sia.Say cannot jump cannot jump.Jump only get 2metres.....bloody hell........

then after recess had Lit test.....was quite ok la....but anyhow crap.......then straight after that had History test!Wah...mentally exhuasting.....but at least Tan Yan Ho let us listen to music while we do.....yay.......shld pass...but damn low......

then after that got back PoA result......suck sia....11/15.......screwed up the whole General Journal.......

after school....went Yishun again cos of Harrison,Jasmine and Ben,Shirley.Tot Pris would be there,then on the way there,Shirley call me say Pris not going.Harrison bought some kind of softtoy dog for Jasmine.Of course Ben tell him to do so de la.then after that,went near Shirley's hse and everyone just crapped at the playgrnd.Ben and Shirley had some probs lo.At least they solve liao...then after that went home by taxi cos if take train confirm die lo.....come home damn late,Dad will kill me.Argh.But heng,escape lo.Then today at first...okok lo...but when we were in Yishun,my mood totally changed.....dunno why.....maybe cos of Pris not being there.....but did that really make me so...so....dead?

Thats abt it la...I and Harrison agree liao......tmr onwards no going out after school......

2005-07-26T08:31:00.000-07:00

well.....today was ok la.....but Harrison...sad la.......all the teachers keep picking on him....Mr.Pang,TML,Ms.Toh also....

then had PoA test......was quite ok..shld pass.....but not too hopeful though...then after that...had SS......sian la.stupid TML.....talk and talk only.....dunno how to teach properly....

after recess had Physics...was ok......went through workbook and KKW sentalot of pple to go buy green pens cos they didnt bring theirs....then after that had Lit......the remaining grps had to do roleplay......Adi and Bong did it damn funny sia......Bong really sob damn loud....of course fake one la...but still damn funny.......

Then Anne Low??again went physco on the class.....shout at us....but seriously la......they keep taking advantage that she is new to teaching our class.....

then after sch wait for Harrison to do his SS which was due last wk....then after that went yishun to go find Shirley,Pris and Jasmine.

Took so long just to get there......by the time reach there already like....4+ lo.....then saw Pris and Jas standing outside their school talking to some guy before they went to get their backs.....

After that.....Jas wanted to laminate smth so went there lo.....b4 heading for the kopitiam where Harrison,Ben and Bryan ate their dinner/lunch?Me,having no money,just kop ice from Harrison's drink......then got one part some pple behind us started to listen to techno.Now,I tot that techno sucked la.....cant really stand it......but Harrison reacts worse to that sia....he just couldnt stand it so he walked off with Bryan and Jas....leaving Pris and me alone.....
Well......honestly,I'm sorry Pris....didnt mean to make it so sian.......just that I didnt know what to say...thats why I kept quiet arnd u.....not that I meant to.....i just dunno u well enough yet.....so.pls accept my apologies......

then after that all of us zao.....Bryan kindly tompang us in the taxi to AMK where I and Harrison took 13 back to Bishan and went home.....

Thats pretty much it.......so its now 9 days and counting since I've not gone home straight after school.....

2005-07-25T21:47:00.000-07:00

Wah siao liao......for the past....8 days,not a single day have i gone home early....

Last monday: Went out with Harrison,Bryan,Ronald,Aloy,Ben and Boi to meet Shirley and her frens.Then learned that,if i not wrong,both like Harrison.Hhaha.....pro-ded....so stayed at j8 till like......5+?then all left.....

Last tuesday: When Shawn's house to finish up on the project business plan....Couldnt do much cos Bryan and Harrison keep bugging us...lol...no offence though....then tot complete liao...perfect liao....hand up and got it back....turned out with we messed up with minor details and might to have redo certain sections......went home...arnd 5 also....

Last wednesday: well....Went out again with Ben,Aloy,Ron,Harrison and Bryan to Kovan.....go there eat yoshinoya then thats it....all of us(Bryan,Ron and I) tot that Jasmine and Priscilla were coming...chey.....in the end nv turn up....sad sia....hahhaa....then at Kovan got some Yunan Hair treatment thingy going on.....i keep bugging Harrison to go for that....lol....then went home arnd 5+.....again...

Last thursday: What did we do?Oh ya.....went j8.....actually Ben supposed to meet Shirley there cos she getting haircut...but in the end..Me,Ron,Harrison and Bryan tagged along...then i think when Jasmine found out Harrison going,she wanted to go.So after that met up for lunch and ate at Food Junction.But I no money...so buy drink and kop a bit from Harrison....then after that Harrison sent Jasmine home sia!.....so gentlemanly right?!lol...again went home 5+....-.-

Last Friday: Went Shawn's hse to work on IT presentation when we finally realised that the deadline was on tuesday(25/07/05)...so diao right....so rush through but then cannot finish..so left to monday to complete...then went back to school for PIE....hear teachers talk and thats it...went home with Harrison and Kah Meng arnd....8+...

Last Sat: Went to PHS with BCC alumni....then went PS watch movie....supposed to meet Bryan and the rest for dinner...but by the time they were done,I was in Bishan....so decided not to go....then stayed out till 8+

Sun: Left home early to go j8.meet up with Bryan,Ron,Boi,Shirley and Jasmine b4 going to the open plaza to watch SoR.....sad though....didnt get to watch RushTrend perform cos I had to go for tuition..then after that.....went to Orchard to find them...to go for dinner....I tot they were joking....but they really went all the way to Sembawang to go find Priscilla.Then when got there,Harrison said he had to leave.Then Shirleyt said it was my fault.....ok lo..whatever lo....my fault my fault lo.....bo bian right I got tuition...then also not I wan go look for Priscilla.so after that we took the shuttle bus to Sembawang Shopping Centre....while waiting for the bus to leave,Jasmine and Harrison had a gd long talk alone...so sweet right?hahah.....then left and went to find Priscilla.Go there...then i suddenly feel damn miserable la.....dunno why....but became kinda....lifeless.....heh...so after that found Priscilla,I became humji...didnt say a thing and didnt go in....then they tried to pull and push me in..and Bryan made a mistake of resting both legs on my leg....so i hammer up la...and he fell to the grnd...of course not pain right?i nv use strength....lol....so after that said bye to Priscilla and we went for dinner.....waited damn long for my KFC chicken lo!....kao all eat finish liao and Boi even had time to order another burger...so....-.-....then in the end i couldnt finish my burger......diao...then Boi ji siao me la....say got someone up there working till 10....shldnt waste food blah blah blah.....then after that went home by taxi thnks to Bryan....although I did pay him back $2 today.
Got home arnd 9......

Today:Stayed at Shawn's hse to finish the IT stuff....kao.this project is getting on my nerves lo.....then went home arnd 5+ and met my Dad on the bus...so walked homed together...

You see?Not a single day did I go straight home after school/tuition/"fun"....and I'm happy abt it?I dunno....kinda weird....hmm....oh well.....

Oh and CONGRATS TO HARRISON!!!Whoooo!!!You deserve whats happening bro....U deserve it......Forget abt the loss...and move on......Whoo!Go Harri!

24/07/05

2005-07-24T22:19:00.000-07:00

Well.....ytd went out with the BCC almuni for the first time in over a month.....went to Sean's school's funfair.Didnt really enjoy myself at the beginning....if u were there,u would have understood why.

So supposed to meet at Yio Chu Kang MRT station at arnd.....12?yea......so i took 13 all the way there.....thought I would be late but turned out I was the earliest.....so stood there and waited lo.....then after like....20 mins?i saw Brooks and Ben.Was awkward lo....after all,I and Ben not on good terms anymore....so was weird...then waited for Tanya and Jin Jun....in the end Jin Jun nv come cos he finished band and went home to slp.....then Tanya smsed Ben and told him to go find Sean first....so went to PHS lo.....walk arnd tried to find Sean but couldn't...so....went to the bball court and watch pple play....then after a while Tanya arrived after she called Ben.....

Then walked arnd somemore and found Sean....bought snacks but we didnt eat them.....then Ben and Brooks spent like......$15 on drinks and hotdogs and fishballs......-.- ......then after that went back to the MRT station to meet Jaslyn.We then went straight to PS to meet Shermin cos she's working there.But when we got there,we found out that she only starts work at 3....so went arcade first to play a couple of games before proceeding to PS.When we got there we just stood arnd after we met up with Shermin.....Then she had to go to work,so we decided to watch a movie...actually Ben and Brooks already decided la.....was just up to me,Tanya and Jaslyn.So in the end watched Red Candy despite "protests" from Tanya and Jaslyn.The show was damn dumb sia......can't believe I wasted my money on that.....haiz.....then after that...supposed to go home.so Jaslyn went another way while I walked with Tanya to her block.But we decided to continue walking and just continue talking.after a while,we turned back when Tanya spotted Ben and Brooks.What the hell lo!They actually followed us home?!they tried to like hide from us lo...so i and Tanya went into the park and she showed me where she filmed her chinese project thingy....then after that played arnd the blocks for like....an hr lo...kao they damn si bei bo liao lehz......

Then after that we went to j8....for sorta no reason.....then after that i sent her home....I really enjoyed my time with her...i mean ytd was the longest time we spent with each other since i got to know her 2 mnths ago....
But then when i got home,she smsed me that Ben and Brooks at her block downstairs and asked if she wanted to meet them...and she did.....honestly,Brooks and Ben are too free.....

2005-07-15T04:47:00.000-07:00

Today sch had Racial Harmony Day Celebrations

Today was kinda song lo........go school in home clothes.........but was like damn weird lo....on the bus.....u see students on the bus wearing their sch uniform....carrying their bags to sch...then like..I'm the only student wearing a blue shirt and black pants......not carrying any bag.....felt like kena practical joke and that was supposed to wear sch uniform....to quote Shawn:It just seems so untrue.

So got to school...aw other kids in home clothes so relaxed lo.....then after that went for assembly......entire sch in home clothes except sec4 and 5.....cos they have normal lessons......then even teachers dressed up....like...Mr Tuang wore a traditional chinese shirt that was like....gold in colour?then Mr Tay wore an Indonesian shirt...in the end Jeffrey Chan call him Indon Mafia.......so chinese class we keep calling him that.......then got like....Ms Leow wear Cheongsam,Jasmine Goh wear India outfit.......even Marcel Lee and Subash wore Indonesian and Chinese shirts lo.....

then had lessons till.........9+ lo.....2 chinese and 1 chem...so sianz......slept during chinese class.....dunno why felt to tired then.......lol....after that went for recess......damn canteen full of students.....queue up buy drink had to wait like.....half an hr lo......sianz......then slack until 12,went to hall and adi and safith won awards for being most hip and most ethnical dressing lo....lol......3e6 rocks man.......

after that left sch..supposed to go watch movie.....but dunno what Bryan do that piss Ronald off till everything cancelled......so came home and slacked even more.......hehe.........that seems to be all I've been doing recently...

SHOULD I STAY---DREAMZ FM
Had a drive
Driven by your love
But when you messed around
I lost the drive I found

Thought you needed
Needed someone true
But you changed your mind
Or had I failed you?

Wish youd been
Careful with my heart
But you tore it apart
And broke an angel’s heart

The kiss was true
Has to end somehow
But I am living proof of what love is about

Its hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
Its sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I dont know (I dont know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?

You played me on
Played me like a clown
But I feel for you
Eventhough Im down

My heart is heavy
Heavy like a rock
But I am so amused
Youre still in my thoughts

Its hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
Its sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I dont know (I dont know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?

Its hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
Its sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I dont know (I dont know)
I wanna know
Should I stay or should I…?

This time its done
Itll never feel the same
But we had some good times
Guess its sad just the same
I guess the truth
Doesnt matter somehow
But you were living proof of what love is about…

2005-07-11T17:05:00.000-07:00

Wow.......exactly 1 mnth since i've last blogged......so....guess i'll blog in a mnth's time again!.....lol.....jk nia....

well.....lets just say the last mnth hasn't been nice la........emotions go up and down up and down...kinda sucky lo.....besides.....there wasnt much to blog abt anyway.....

So sch's started like......for 3 weeks now?yea......used to waking up at 530 again.....no more comfort of slping till 10 in the morning anymore......haiz....so been kinda bombarded with work everyday......but luckily.....its not so terok as i tot it would be......but i think Mr.Tuang said gonna have PoA test every wk liao.......bo pian.....our class i think kinda lagging behind......then...oh ya......Harrison's band,Rushtrend,made it to the semis of School of Rock.....pro seh.....representing our sch and 3e6.....with Lucas and Aloy also in there.......they are featured in today's Life section....go check it out........

Then also....Ron pangseh me lo.....wah kao...say wanna join my tuition then ytd tell me not joining liao....going back to his Potong Pasir one.......kao...nvm.....

To whoever it may concern : All i did was for ur good....cause i was concerned abt you....but it seems all my goodwill intentions came out wrongly....just feel like u cant be bothered that I care abt you...haiz....maybe u're right that i'm trying to hard....but is it wrong for me to try and look out for you?.....i dunno....maybe u just dun appreciate my help...

Logging off......

2005-06-11T17:52:00.000-07:00

This will be my last blog before I'm off to Malta with my family and getting to see my sis.Seriously can't wait to see her again.

Well,let's see what have I done recently.

Mon:Went to Shawn's house with Boi and Ron to discuss on our project work.Did research and pretty much did nothing else that was productive.Boi challenged Shawn's brother to Halo and NFS:Underground with Ron taking turns with Boi.After that,played dart in Shawn's room.Ron kena thrashed like hell.Hahaha.I rmb at one point was like Boi-30+,Ron-100++.So after that left and went home while Boi and Ron went to Bryan's house.

Tuesday: Sat at home and rotted.Nah,did some of my chemistry homework.Very little done.

Wednesday: Again,did nothing much.Wanted to do my PoA until I realised my file was with Ron.And he hasn't returned it yet.

Thursday: Went to Boi's house to continue on our project.Decided not to make what we planned and changed our product.But then we realised that we didn't know what we were doing at all.So e-mailed Ong Ai Lingg and called her to set up an appointment.Set it for Tuesday afternoon at 1.Then had lunch at Boi's house before he remembered that he had a checkup on Tuesday.Meaning I,Ron and Shawn had to meet her.After that left for home.Got home and found out that I was going to Malta afterall and was leaving on Sun morning.That means Ron and Shawn have to meet OAL themselves.At night,watched AXN's Dracula:Dead and Loving It while using the com.Talked to a few people before Ann came online.Didn't see her for 3 weeks I think.So I asked her how she was and she told me to call her cause she was watching Lost alone.And in the dark.So waited till my parents went to sleep before calling least they get the wrong idea and thought I had a girlfriend.They are always doing that.Bleah.So I and Ann just talked from late 11 to arnd 1 am.Found out that she blocked me and deleted me from her Msn.Hmm,never mind.Understand her reason for doing so.And at that point in time,realised that I was kinda busybody.Always asking what happened when she's down.Tend to do that to alot of people.Am I a busybody?Well,you decide.We talked crap especially the part where she was telling me that her TV went kaputz.It was a 48 inch plasma TV.And she,or more like her parents,changed it to a 42 inch plasma TV.Freaking jealous sia!I mean the latest TV my family had was a 29 inch Flat Screen TV!And that was bought 2 years ago!Damn jealous.Then she can complained at first that she felt her 42 inch plasma TV was small.Wah lao.Make me jealous only sia.So after talking on the phone for 1 hr 29 mins,went to sleep.

Fri: Woke up and smsed Ann for her "morning call" and to remind her to charge her phone.In the end,didn't have to wake her up cause she woke up from a nightmare.Then went to meet Harrison and Bryan and Ron to watch movie at PS.Took cab from Bryan's house and he paid for it.So generous and kind,but friggin hell,he is friggin rich.So around $8 is like probably nothing to him.Met Ron and PS and watched Monster-in-law.But had like 40 minutes before it started,so decided to walk around.Went Times and I bought SHOOT.For those who don't know,SHOOT is one of the longest running soccer magazines published.After that went to watch the movie.Quite funny but also kind of dumb.Especially the part where J.Lo's lips swelled cause of an allergy to nuts. -.- .Then after that went Yoshinoya for dinner where Bryan and Ron bought food while I and Harrison sat that like dumbasses.After that took taxi back to Serangoon(again Bryan paid for it).From Serangoon,took 70 to tuition while Harrison took 53.So had tuition till like 11 where Mr.Ng sent me home.Bathed before going online.Talked to Tanya.then Ann came online.Also talked to her.After a while,she complained that she didn't feel like looking at the computer screen any longer.So asked her if she wanted me to call her.She said anything.So ok,called her.then talked to her again. -.- .Turned out she had to stay online cause her friend wanted to ask her stuff.From that point on,what was said between me and her will stay between me and her.Cause it's just not right to tell anyone else.What was said and asked was wrong and should never be revealed.After that,both of us hung up and went to sleep.

That's about it.So to everyone who cared or even bothered to read my blog,Thank You very much.Graci.

Ciaoz.

2005-06-09T21:04:00.000-07:00

hmm.....decided not to blog anymore abt china......will give u a brief summary of everything when i get back from malta i guess........

ya well..im off malta on Sun......be back only next mon....meaning I will miss 1 chem lesson and a few meetings for the project thing......

haiz.......feel really sucky right now......also dunno why.....just feel......very weird....like having strange headaches here and there.......haiz......dunno why.......

will just end my post here......the feeling is back.......

2005-06-05T00:30:00.000-07:00

Wahhey!!!I'm finally back!!!!6 days in China!!!Went to so many cool places........wish I could blog all abt them......but I'll just briefly run through them....

30th May: Was at the airport at 11 plus on 29th May......arnd 12+.....took a sch pic for the sch mag......with banner and stuff.....quickly smsed tanya and told her I'm flying off....so on board.....immediately sat down and fell asleep....so fast.....for almost 6 hrs I was just slping there.......lol......then reached beijing......wah lao.....their customs i tell u ar.......damn freaking slow....stood there for like 1/2 hr.....in singapore only barely 1 min clear liao.....anyway......smsed my mum....informed her that I was safely in China....lol....see......I so guai......report to my mum........yea right.....after that went straight to Forbidden City....so damn cool.....so many palaces.....total of 9999 rooms......of course didnt visit all.....siao ar visit all....
Left Forbidden City......me,shawn,leonard cheng and boi sat at the back...always slp on the bus the 4 of us.....then arrived at a war museum......took a lot of pics at Forbidden City and the War museum that I was afraid I would run out of memory space for my d.cam.Saw things like torpedos,guns,grenades,rocket launchers,bayonet daggers etc.......so damn cool...went for lunch and proceeded to Lao She's residence.He was a Chinese writer and poet whose death is shrouded in mystery bcos pple say that the Red Guards killed him while the official reports state that he died from suicide..went back hotel and slacked.....b4 going for dinner...

31st May: Went to Soong Ching Ling's former hse.....FYI,she was Dr. Sun Yat Sen's second wife who stood behind him throughout their marriage.Walked arnd...took a few photos here and there......after that......proceeded to go to Tiananmen Square.....but reach there started raining......so everyone rush to see Mao Zadong's body.......but only like 7 of us made through the first attempt.....wah...then kena by ice hailstones lehz!!!in the middle of summer summore!!!Tio in the neck and head....but not pain....just shocked....then after that went to the 1st of 2 wax museums I would visit in 6 days.took pics of Karl Marx,Lenin,Emperors Kang Xi and Qing Shi Huang and Deng Xiaoping...

hmm.....will blog till here.....will continue other days........cheers!

2005-05-29T01:38:00.000-07:00

Why?!WHY?!Why can't I let things go....?!Anyone give me an answer!!!.......This is killing me.....1 wk away.....makes alot of difference.....I know you said before you are feeling neutral..but I just get this nagging feeling you aren't.....

You 2 share the passion for films...while we dun seem to have anything in common....haiz....maybe its fate....maybe this was how it was supposed to be like...i dunno...i dunno anything nowadays.......so confused and frustrated....so many things i wanna say....but can't......

Haiz....What the hell is wrong with me?!!?!!?!?......Im getting jealous over the slightest thing....this isn't like me...this is what I've become?!......

So many things left unanswered.....so many things not done....yet....I dun have to will to carry on....things weren't what I hoped it would be...but then again.....nth ever turns out the way we want it to be....screw life....plays arnd with ur mind and heart.....

Blahz....all that i've been through didn't make me "stronger" like pple alway say obstacles do.....they just made me....disoriented...and confused....weak....

Guess have to wait next wk to settle........i fear the same result will happen like last time.....

2005-05-28T23:42:00.000-07:00

wahhey....went out today b4 i fly off to china for a wk....

well........ytd planned to meet ron and the rest with ben and tanya....planned everything already.....then this morning,ben called me and told me jin could meet us...so changed plans...told ron,luke and boi.....then since had like......1 hr?sat down and watched highlights of the AMAZING comeback by liverpool.....hehe....still so happy abt the game!!........i would have cried sia had liverpool lost.....but they didn't!.....ahahahah...they won!!!still can't get over that.....ohoh......I want to sign up for the membership at the Official Liverpool FC Supporters club......but must pay $30 just as signing up fee......then an annual payment of $20.....so.....rather undecided....but i think will la.....soon.......

anyway anyway....back to today.......so met Tanya at the mrt.....she was there with her sis.....but felt so malu.....was late.....felt so crappy....made them wait...So sorry....
So went to yishun....had a hard time finding ben and jin cos they were near northpoint.....while we were at the mrt side....so went across to find them.....then walked to the back.....and managed to see where they were.....they were at long john's silver eating lunch....so we just sat there and talked and stoned...then tried to help Tanya find a way to get to fort canning park for her reunion.....then after that....went to watch madagascar.....

The show was funny......no doubts abt it and no questions asked........damn funny...laughed like mad during the show.....only downside:kids making so much noise.......but....must tahan....so tahan lo......after show ended...walked arnd northpoint without a clue as to what to do...as usual...then jin left to go his friend's hse...left me,ben and Tanya.Walked arnd.....then decided to go PS....cos it would be easier for Tanya to get to fort canning.So took a train....on board.....ben took the handle and like wanted to knock this guy's head with it....was funny la...u have to see it....can't be described.

Reached there......i gave a call to Ron and asked him where he was.....they were still at PS.....so decided to find them.....but that was later...First went to carrefour cos Tanya had to buy stuff for her reunion....they were having potluck mahz.....in the end.....walked arnd and suddenly got pain in my stomach.....dunno why....Tanya said maybe gastric cos i didn't have lunch and drank coke instead.....hmm...oh well.........its gone now...so cant be bothered....in the end....she bought 2 packets of chips and pringles....before leaving to meet her friend....ben also followed her cos he was headed the same way to the mrt while i went back to PS to find Ron...found him at the food court with Joel Tan,Glen and Luke.....like a jacka$$ stood there and waited for them to finish before we all headed home....ron took a direct bus while luke took the NEL.....so I,Glen and Joel took the NSL home....Glen dropped at tp while I and Joel alighted at Bishan and took 54...came home and ate dinner......

so here i m blogging.....half wishing that I didn't have to go to china...dunno why.....maybe its cos i can't bear to leave things behind?......i noe its only 1 wk.....but a wk changes alot of thing in life....haiz.....wish I could settle so many things before I leave.....wish I could see her 1 last time before i leave......supposed to be today organise bcc alumni "meeting" cos i was going off tmr..but now....i wanna see her again.....she'll be busy through the whole june holidays...so would I.....haiz.....

-------Lost,Broken,Confused----(Mest)
Did you get scared standing alone in the crowd?
Did you give up when i was no where to be found?
Did you get tired of being left all alone?
Do you feel better now that your on your own?

There's nothing without you
The days once had are through
I'm lost, broken, confused
But i won't give up on you
Tonight

All I see is your face now on everyone else
Now I know how scared you were all by yourself
When your phone rings do you ever hope that its me?
Do you ever dream of a day when we will still be?

There's nothing without you
The days once had are through
I'm lost, broken, confused
But I won't give up on you
Tonight I lie here all alone wondering what our future holds
And if my life should fall apart
Would you still care?
Would you still care?

There's nothing without you
The days once had are through
I'm lost ,broken, confused
But I won't give up on you
I won't give up on you
I won't give up on you
Tonight

2005-05-26T17:20:00.000-07:00

Let me give a scenario.You are a top class manager who had just won the Spanish League Title with your club.You are then offered a job at a fallen English club who have a rich history in the soccer world.You have an almost perfect home record in your first season with the club although you have a horrid away form.With much deadweight players left behind from the previous regime of a French manager,you have to turn the club's fortunes around to appease the club hardcore fans and at the same time try to keep your inspirational skipper at the club.Losses to lesser-known teams such as Crystal Palace,Burnley,Birmingham etc.etc have damaged your credibility and injuries to star players for months have left you dipping into the club's youth and reserve team for backup.What would you do to turn all these around?Furthermore,Finishing 5th in the Premier League behind 4th-placed Everton,the club's most hated rivals besides Man Utd is not a good way to do so.What would you do in such a predicament?

If you are a certain Mr. Rafael"Rafa"Benitez,you bring Liverpool FC to the Champions League Final of course!Making use of newly acquired players like Nunez,Josemi and Garcia,along with old floundering players from the Gerard Houllier management,Mr.Benitez changed Liverpool's season in one single competition.The very competition that Man Utd boss Sir Alex Ferguson,Arsenal manager Arsene Wenger and a certain Jose"SSSHHH!!The Special One"Mourinho would give anything to win.At the beginning,many doubted Mr.Benitez's ability and Liverpool's chances due much to the fact that they struggled to beat AK Graz in the qualifying round and that the English club were only there to make up the numbers.However,many were made to eat their words on 26th May 2005(Singapore time) where after 124 matches had been played,there were only 2 clubs left standing: 6 time Champions League winner AC Milan,whose last CL triumph came back in 2003 against Juventus and 4 time winner Liverpool FC,whose last European Cup Final win came in 1984 and were 18 time English League Champions.

Liverpool were automatically given the tag: Underdogs.Of coures,it was understandable for Milan had a huge amount of experience in their squad with the likes of Maldini,who was incidentally playing in his 7th CL Final this morning and current European Player of the Year,Andriy Shevchenko.Up to this point in time,Liverpool FC's chances of winning were slim to none,with many Chelsea fans arguing that the Red half of Merseyside made it to Istanbul,Turkey by virtue of a dubious goal.But that didn't matter did it?What mattered was Liverpool FC making it to the Final.Using poor players in the Houllier era,people like Igor Biscan ,Djimi Traore,John Arne Riise,Steve Finnan and Jamie Carragher achieved their true potential under Mr.Benitez.

However,who would have thought Milan would lead 3-0 at halftime against a lacklustre Liverpool side.In under a minute,Paolo Maldini had opened the scoring with Hernan Crespo,who had promised to score againt Liverpool as revenge for his parent club:Chelsea,delivered true to his word and put 2 past Jerzy Dudek.But,whatever Mr.Benitez told the players worked,with the Liverpool supporters(inc. Sinagporeans!)chanting:"We can win 4-3!We can win4-3!"Not exactly true,but heartwarming and inspiring it was.Within 4 minutes,club captain Steven Gerrard put a looping header past the Milan 'keeper,Dida.Shortly after that,Smicer,who had come on for the limping Harry Kewell,scored a 20 yard goal that no international world-class goalkeepers could keep out.And the decisive moment had come,Steven Gerrard won a penalty and Xabi Alonso,who had spent months out with an injured ankle,stepped up and struck the penalty.Saved at the first attempt by Dida,the Brazilian could do nothing as the Spanish midfielder slotted home the rebound with ease.

Whatever time after that was fairly even between the 2 clubs.That meant after 120 mintues of football,the match was tied at 3-3.The dreaded penalties arrived.Before the match,Senor Benitez claimed that Liverpool did not practice penalties.Nice try Senor,but you could never fool us hardcore Liverpool fans,what with your distinct style of management in which you never laeve any stone unturned.Tense moments followed as Serginho stood up againt Jerzy"Slippery Pole"Dudek.The Milan winger sent his shot wide and over the bar,bringing back old memories.Back in 1984,the match was Liverpool Fc v AS Roma in the old European Cup Final.Then goalkeeper Bruce Grobbelaar made his legs look weak and jelly-like in a bid to put off the opposing player.It worked as the Roma player struck his shot over the bar,allowing Alan Kennedy to score the winning penalty.That was 21 years ago.This is now.Having seen Serginho miss,Dietmar"Didi"Hamann(whose name by the way,got nominated for the new bridge at the new Wembley.Why?It's because he scored the last goal at the old Wembly)took up the responsibilty and put the ball into the back of the net.Next up was Andrea Pirlo,long regarded as the Italian master at set-pieces and was viewed as the best penalty taker currently on the Milan books.But as the saying goes: Form goes right out the window when it's a cup final.How true.How true.He steps up and Dudek,with his Grobbelaar impression,does well to save it.Next was French international striker,Djibril Cisse.It's truly an amzing story as he was expected to face the entire season out,but instead manage to recover in time to gain match fitness.He strikes the ball with the complete ease as Dida watches the ball fly by.Jon Dahl Tomasson was next.Former flop at Newcastle,he turned his career around with a move to AC Milan and that paid off as he effortlessly stuck the ball past Dudek.Riise,a revalation in midfield this season,chose placement over his pure hard power and that allowed Dida to jump to his right and stop the ball.Score was 2-1.

Next up was Kaka,playing in his first European final since joining the the club from Sao Paulo.He puts in the net and levels the score.Out-going Vladimir Smicer steps up to end his Liverpool career on a high and slots it home.Finally,Shevchenko who had already been denied twice in quick succession during extra time stood forward and struck the ball.At first glance,it looked as though he had brough Milan level again.However,Dudek's leg had gotten in the way and that meant it was all over.Liverpool didn't even need to take the 5th kick.It was over.Liverpool FC were once again CHAMPIONS of Europe.

Tears flowed out of my eyes.Tears not of sorrow nor pain.But that of joy.Unbelievable amounts of passion obvious to my family.Pure emotion,true happiness and actual bliss was found as Steven Gerrard lifted the trophy.History was made as the trophy found its permanent home:the cabinet of Anfield.

I'll end it today here.Hardly had any sleep.Pure adrenaline pumped through my body.

Till next time: Senor Rafael Benitez and all the players: Well done fellas.Well done.

You'll Never Walk Alone!!!!!

2005-05-24T20:30:00.000-07:00

Hmm.....today had a rather ok day......boring even........got handed a project assignment to do......but i just realised that i dun have a lot of time to do it........

played soccer.....let in 3 goals......but set up 1.......not bad.....but was like.......wen kai and yk keep trying to chase me out the game......whatever sia......cant be bothered with pple like them......

now china got bird flu again.......i going there at the end of the wk....anything will happen?.......also dunno.......haiz.......

Life's so screwed up nowadays.......oh well.......what to do......Oh but got some gd news in that tmr is the day Liverpool v AC Milan for the UEFA Champions League and Peter Manfredo Jr v Sergio Mora for The Contender Final......hope Liverpool and Manfredo win man.....

Gonna watch the match!.......sweet.......

20th May 2005

2005-05-20T22:32:00.000-07:00

Well...lets see what can I blog abt?Last 2 days have had post exam actitvities before recess and had hr long recess!.......sweet.....first day....there was a soccer and basketball competition going on....but during that time I had a briefing on my China trip so missed out on everything..........second day had this talent quest thingy.....something like Singapore Idol but with even less talent?some were good.......some were just hard to listen to.....like Andre Tan trying to sing "Somebody Told Me" by The Killers.....I not say can sing very well la......but wah.....i couldn't listen to his singing........then had drums solo and musical instruments and my class had Joey,Nic,Saf and Kenneth performing with Daniel from 3e1......they were good......but K.Chia forgot his lines......but Daniel,Nic,Joey and Safith were great......they even performed after everything while everyone was going out from the hall for recess.......

Then during recess......the Flying Dutchman came to our school........did games and tell jokes....not bad quite funny......but then abt to end...Ms Toh make us leave the hall just to return out Lit marks......then after school found out i passed my PoA!!!!Its like......Whoa!.....cos i defo did not expect to pass.....in the end got an A2......so happy!......even managed to get full marks for 1 section!!!!!Pro sia la!lol......then anyway....today go school...sian sian one sia......nth to do........got back my Chem marks......quite ok la......got higher than expected......but did poorly for english and lit.....way way below my standard.......nvm.....must work harder......

After school.....played soccer........but only got 7 of us......so Boi,Nic.Chia,Nat,Ronald and Steph played against the Maris Stella guys while I and Shu Quan just kick here and there........not very fun....but still.......first time i play since falling on my head I think....plus with the exams and all.......so ya........quite ok.....after that went home arnd 3 with Harrison.....came home.....played com..play ps2.....watched a little tv.......kept thinking of alot things that have been happening.....like whether I still had a chance after what happened that night......messed alot of things up.....

Hmm......just rmbed i need to start listing out what I'm bringing to China....and what I'm gonna get there for my friends.....like Aloy wants a trench coat......Dude.....I'll try to get it for ya.....no promises though........and her.....I dunno what to get........wanna surprise her with something nice....even though we're not together......oh well......I'll think abt it......

2005-05-18T21:23:00.000-07:00

haiz..........thought everything had been resolved........but apparently not..........all of us still so.........weird talking to each other.......for me and her not so bad.......and me and him........but she and him......he like wanna give up but dun wanna let go.......haiz.....looks like back to square one........everyone's the same point again....

Anyway......a poem from Yihui's senior:

[[A.poem.for.you,a.thousand.times,
yet.i'm.sitting.here,composing.rhymes.
I'm.tired.of.waiting,I'm.tired.of.lies.
I.want.to.give.up,and.not.end.up.in.cry]]
[[I.know.that.your.heart,has.no.place.for.me.
For.he.is.all,you.need.and.live.for
While.I.stay.lonely.at.a.corner,
I.hope.he.can.bring.you.happiness.and.more]]

[[The.exams.are.over,and.so.is.the.nightmare,
but.you.still.wouldn't.call,its.me.you.don't.care.
My.phone's.grabbed.tightly.by.my.palm.
its.a.torturing.pain,just.to.keep.calm.]]
[[I.can.imagine,that.you're.with.him,
chatting.about,your.happiness.and.joy.
Until.it.turns.silent,when.his.eyes.meet.yours.
your.eyes.shut,as.his.lips.fit.yours.]]

[[Should.i.be.happy? Should.i.be.not?
My.mind's.a.confused.state,messed.up.in.thoughts.
I.should.be.happy,for.your.heart.is content.
But.I.should.be.not,for.my.heart.is.not.ment.]]

[[I.hope.that.this.will.be.the.last,that.I'm.thinking.of.you.
Bother.you.again, I.never.will.
Please.stay.happy.and.smile.more.each.time.
For.I'm.scared.to.lose.your.picture.in.my.mind,]]

in a way....this really sums up what has bee happening...some parts nv happen la.....but its a poem by my friend's senior........not bad.....

FINALLY!!!

2005-05-16T11:55:00.000-07:00

Yes!Finally my mid year is over!!!After a long week.....that has been filled.....with pain and happiness.....

So today had my chem paper....quite ok la.......shld be able to pass.....lol.....so low standard sia.....aim to pass.......haiz.....lol

then waited for K.Sim......supposed to go make IC together......but the bloody guy didnt know need to bring Birth Cert...so tmr after my CIP then go do.....

Sia.......damn tired.......didnt sleep at all last night.....maybe for like 5 mins?hardly call that a sleep...had so much.....anger and fury and hate inside....u tell me la....how to even sleep?.....kept punching the walls.....knuckles got small cuts here and there.....but don even feel a thing.Why?Cos I'm dead inside....of course can't feel....Then I tried to choke myself.......just put my hand arnd my neck and started wringing...haiz...in the end gave up.....cos felt it was too much trouble.......so forget it......

Ya so anyway.....Im not a very happy guy.......so if you read this....pls dun piss me off....Haiz....till next time bahz.....Ciaoz...

2005-05-13T13:14:00.001-07:00

Yea!C'mon!!!............1 paper to go!!!so fast.........but i think im gonna do quite poorly........oh well.......oh ya......anyone wanna go out b4 29th may?........cos im flying off to china for 1 wk........wanna go out b4 that........go out with friends and anyone....like maybe with the bcc alumni again......or maybe just someone?........haiz i dunno.......

Well....its been a rather down week for me......not feeling really happy or anything......not that I've been for the past few mths.....haiz.......then recently......was told some stuff....that frankly didnt go down well with me......so im like...wanna die wanna die liddat......quite obvious what......see my msn nick noe liao.....

I feel like I've been dead inside for so long now....sure....got some moments feel happy la.....but that has been once or twice nia........sian......then with all the news of....sth....coming in....i like dun wanna live anymore....Cos this life has been crap......bleah......

Anyway......i'll end here.....nth else to say....Im dead inside........why don't you just press that trigger and let one off so I can be spared this pain......

oh btw.......Alf Arrowsmith: Legendary striker for the Reds......1942-2005......R.I.P....You'll Never Walk Alone....

2005-05-12T22:14:00.000-07:00

LIVERPOOL IS IN THE CL FINAL!!!

2005-05-04T20:25:00.000-07:00

Oh my god!!!Liverpool have made it to the CL final!!!!!Against all odds,Liverpool has reached the pinnacle of European football!!!!Heroes for the night are Garcia,Carragher,Gerrard,Hamann,Hyypia.........basically the entire team that played!!!!And Rafa Benitez,is he the the best manager in England or what......he outsmarted pple like Capello,Deschamps and the so called "special one" Mourinho and oh ya.......Jose is such a sore loser..........Liverpool better just admit la......say what the "better side" lost....if Chelsea were the better side,they would be in the Final of the CL!......

Sssshhhh!!!!Dun let Mourinho hear that......LOL..........stupid arrogant sore loser Jose mourinho..this will show you to try and silence Anfield!......

2005-04-30T06:00:00.000-07:00

hmm.....today went back to school for POA remedial.....quite ok la..but not used to waking up so early on a saturday.....

then after that went to meet jin and ben at j8........eat lunch then go tanya's block to study.......after like......half an hr? she and her bro,sean, came and joined us.....
but after that she had to go off to do her school project....then sean left as well.....quite boring.....but i managed to complete some of my work.......

cane home,ate dinner,played my game then talked to my friends b4 blogging......anyway....tonight is LFC v Boro......C'mon you Reds!Win it for 4th spot!

Oh and I got my letter to make my IC today....cool.....

2005-04-23T23:05:00.000-07:00

hmm........today had an ok day.......

went out with tanya,ben and jin jun to watch a movie........jin could only meet us at 230.......but we met at 11.......stupid right?.....so in the end spent like 3 hours doing nth?!..........at first.....met tanya at the bishan mrt control station.........almost didnt recognise her......i mean...i actually forgot who she was liao....until ben tell me he managed to find her......then only today i found out that she actually knows wei jun!.....lol....so like caught up with her first.......talk to her till ben came....then just hung out arnd j8......then went to tanya's friend hse.......cos her friend supposed to teach her ss?.....i think so....so i and ben just sat in her friends hse........looking very stupid cos like we dun even noe her friend and just caught up with tanya recently....

so after that.....left and then again loitered arnd j8 before jin came........when jin came we left bishan and went to plaza sing......go there buy ticketsfor Guess Who........damn funny sia...........seriously shld go catch it if u havent....then walk arnd first b4 watching the show...after that........went back to bishan to play bball with them,....but the court was occupied so in the end played soccer...pass here and there......then went to eat dinner.....after that..jin went off and i walked with tanya and ben to the busstop so that he could go home........then after that i and tanya left and i walked her to her block's elevator before going home....

came home.......took a shower........watch a bit of soccer.......used the com.....and here i am blogging........well......thats all for today.......

Oh and at tanya's friend hse......i got so bored that ityped in my hp stuff like: how fun TB screening would be....and how nice it would be to get it.....and also like too bad it takes 2 yrs for it to become active.......if not can end things earlier........dumb right..........haiz........feeling very weird now......

2005-04-22T18:14:00.000-07:00

First,My SA is coming up and Im hardly prepared for it....Then there are all these class tests flowing in like there;s no tmr and I'm really afraid that I will flunk my mid year very badly...

Secondly,My sch tio TB.....this sucks........cos of one china fella who got it came to school......I mean how dumb is that?!bcos of that.....my class has to go for screening bcos we were in the same room as 3e3 for english the past couple of mths.......but what the hell lo........idiotic fella...then apparently another student has got it already......bloody hell.... and I think I have it.....I have this stupid cough for like a mth now....and it wun go away......everytime I cough I feel like vomitting...and its sucks.....then Im also losing my appetite.....used to be able to finish a whole plate of rice for dinner but now I cant even finish half of it.....

Thridly,I have been having this really crappy headache that is killing me and wun go away.....I'm trying to forget someone but that person keeps staying on my mind......I dun understand it!...I forget that person for more than 2 yrs and suddenly I get reminded and now I cant forget her?!..And the thing is that she's the girlfriend of one of my friends while she's my exclassmate..I dunno why Im thinking of her so constantly...I know that I dun have feelings for her..but then why do I feel this way?!..I mean......sheesh.......There is seriously sth wrong with me!.....Damn it man....I really hate the way I am feeling now........Just wanna end everything......

2005-04-15T20:24:00.000-07:00

Ok.......time to blog on some stuff

Liverpool are through to the semis of the CL!!Cant believe it manz........against all odds.........can we be like Porto last yr?defintely hope so.......it would be so great to see Liverpool lift the trophy......

Anyway.......had my physics test today.........quite ok.........shld get above 15.....then after school went to play soccer for like a little more than an hr?.....not many pple though........alot of them had cca so they couldnt play...anyway.....was just for fun.......nth much.......

then after that went home with ha spiker and kah meng......and that was it..........boring right.......

Football.....Life and Death?

2005-04-13T20:51:00.000-07:00

What has the world of football turn into,I ask.

Why is it that football,a game enjoyed by many around the world has turned into,like what Channel 5 put it,something that concerns life and death?29th May,1985: Liverpool v Juventus.39 fans died due to a few rowdy Liverpool fans.Ever since,Liverpool have not met Juventus in a competitive match for almost 20 years up till last week when Liverpool beat Juve 2-1 in the CL quaterfinals.Some ultras of Juve have come out to say that they have not forgiven Liverpool fans for that Heysel disaster.

However,tonight,I'm not here to talk about the Liverpool-Juventus hate affair.But rather,about shocking scenes from today's match between city rivals AC Milan and Inter Milan.City rivals since 97 yrs ago,Inter are going through the worse derby spell ever.They have failed to win against the red and black side of Milan since 2002 and are wiithout a win against AC for 9 straight matches.

This morning(Singapore time),after 30 mins into the match,Inter were trailing AC by 1-0 and 3-0 on aggregate after an amazing Andriy Shevchenko strike.All was well until the 70th min when the incident took place.Esteban Cambiasso scored what Inter thought was the equalising goal against AC.However,German referee,Markus Merk,ruled out the goal as he felt that there was an infringement on a AC Milan player.Cambiasso argues with the referee about the decision while the Inter fans start to get angry over the ruling.They start to throw water bottles and flares onto the pitch from the stands.Shocking scenes were taken to a new height as a flare hit AC Milan goalkeeper,Dida,on the shoulder.That led to the officials bringing both sets of players into the side of the pitch while the fire brigade start to clear the flares on the pitch.

However,the Inter fans behind Dida's goal continued to bombard flares and even umbrellas.Markus Merk had no choice but to evacuate the players from the pitch.After 20 mins,he felt that the match should be continued,only for the continued throwing of flares by the Inter fans to stop the match as the AC Milan players came out from the tunnel.

This scenes really bring a bad name to football.Imagine if every match that was a disallowed goal and the fans started throwing flares because certain decisions didnt go their way.There would never be a complete game of football and the referee's would never dare to disallow a goal anymore.Seriously,what has this world turned into?A game of 11 talented players doing what they do best suddenly has become a matter of life and death?Where throwing flares is a justified act of anger?No.Just because decisions don't go your way make it right for anyone to injure a player.Reports have come out and stated that Dida has suffered burns and bruising on the back of his shoulder.

All these things really show the bad side of football which no-one wants to see.So I hope,that the Juventus fans can forgive us,Liverpool fans,for the Heysel disaster 20 years ago.

Amicizia: Friendship.

You'll Never Walk Alone......

2005-04-09T18:06:00.000-07:00

Today is a Saturday......so sianz......supposed to go buy things with Benedict cos he wanna get sth for someone.......but then i tot Boi going Ronald hse.......so i cancel with Ben.......then turn out Boi say nv go........but in the end he still go.....ljb sia........

Ytd was an eventful day........went to school after a day of rest.......everything ok liao......

After that.......go Boi hse with Ronald.......play soccer,use his com.....play FIFA 2005 on his ps2....then went to bathe.......thnx for letting us shower at ur hse manz........thnx......
hmm.......whats there to say?....oh ya..played at the badminton court near Boi's hse......lol........he keep pumping the ball so high and expect Ronald to head it.......lol.......then I and Boi keep kicking the ball away and make Ronald take it.......Sorry man.......all in the name of fun.....

after that arnd 6 went back to school.....meet b4 going to the DBS arts centre.....watch 12th Night........damn nice and quite funny........especially scenes that had Feste.....the guy that portrayed him was damn good......I really enjoyed it.....too bad some pple couldn't appreciate it.......the english used was in old english....made it hard to understand.....but still managed to figure out what was going on.......oh.....the guy that acted as Sir Toby was brilliant!......man.....the entire cast was actuallu damn good......there are no words that can describe how good the play was......I recommend it to everyone......go catch it.....worth every cent......

Then I got home arnd 11+......with Kah Meng and Harrison and Charles following us to Bishan so he can take 410 home......
Then Charles lock Harrison out of his phone.......so Ha-spiker cannot use his hp for the entire weekend....lol............

Today slept till 10 plus.......was so damn tired........ask Harrison.........after the play I wasnt very well.......if not I would have gone to Iman with the rest lor.......oh well.........

2005-04-06T17:47:00.000-07:00

Had another shiok game of soccer today....although was abit tired cos of the long school day i had.......

Then at first alot of pple playing soccer.....lucky Francis brought his ball....so split into 4 grps.....wah kao........simple split took so long.....in the end i same grp as Nic,Boi,Jing Jie,Ronald and Yilong....went 2-0 down against Guan Min's team in under 5 mins?kaoz...so not happy la......Fight back.......thnx to Nic...I scored my 5th career goal in 2 yrs!yea!.......this yr score more than last yr liao lo.......lol........but still way behind in the scoring charts....but in the end lost 3-2.......

so change team......played against Che's team....won by the score of 5-3 sia......skill......got one part high come into my area.....so went to head it away.......but Cheng Xiang also there....then in the end knock into each other......i fell to the ground....and my head hit the concrete and bounce back up again........pain sia.....after that groggy for a short period of time.....but could continue.....took over as keeper when a very ill Boi went up to attack.......conceded the 3 goals.....sad sia......but this time i take full blame.....i had a poor keeper game......then i had alot of chances to score earlier lo....but hit the post.......unlucky sia.......
After that,started to rain....so everyone zao off.......then me,Boi and Ronald go eat lunch at the S-11 food court.......after a while saw three 53 go by lor.......wth....later see Kah Meng and Harrison at the bus-stop....ask them come over and sit down and talk......then after that saw another 53.....rush to board it.....onboard.....I saw someone that look like Charmaine lo.....but in Zhonghua....and according to Clara,Charmaine went to Hougang Sec i think...so cannot be.......but the girl look alot like Charmaine.....

So now I'm home....trying to get this headache caused by the fall to go away.....

Liverpool won!!!OMG!!!against all odds we beat Juventus......AHAHAHAHAHAHA!!Garcia and Hyypia heroes of the night......woohoo........

sianz......tmr going to Metta home......then Fri going for a literature play with my classmates.....almost forgot.......tmr morning must go interview Tan Yan Ho......

Almost forgot!........Congrats Ann.......Gold for SYF.....i noe you were aiming for gold with honours....i noe u trying not to hate commonwealth for winning it......but at least you got gold yea?.......not bad already.......Real happy for ya......

2005-04-05T21:12:00.000-07:00

Whoa!.....had a great soccer game today.......

First followed Nic to buy the ball.....wanna thnk 3e1 for raising the money to help us buy the ball........Thnx to Nic for asking them.....You're truly a great friend......

Then started playing.....I was grped with Nic,Boi,Terence,Yilong and Brian.......Brian.......great game......you saved my skin a couple of times......although got 1 pt where u blocked the view of the ball and Charles scored....nvm.......my first stint as a keeper with my friends.....I hope to improve my keeping skills in the future.....although in my opinion,Adi,Shu Quan,Limbao and YK are so much better.....

Then after that went up and played in attack.......could have gotten a hat-trick lo......if only Ronald passed to me and Nic let me take the penalty.....but in the end I scored 1!Its my 4th career goal since sec2......yea.......its a poor goal-to-game ratio la......cos i usually play at the back or on the side of midfield..then Ronald scored twice in the opening 5 mins!OMG!........I couldnt believe it man........anyway.......Gd job Ronald.....

After that left and went home.......study abit.....played abit......waited till 830 for my dinner.......now here blogging before going to study again

Tonight will mark the 1st time that Liverpool and Juventus meet in a competitive match since the tragic Heysel disaster....its a sad thing to happen.....although it was 5 yrs before I was even born....I,being connected to Liverpool FC(although not registered),it is an awful event to have taken place......and to all those no gd manure and evertonian fans...Stop blaming us for the ban for English clubs in Europe after that episode...U think we wanted it to happen?!.....so shut ur gap!lousy no gd mouth talking crappers........

Anyway.....wanna wish Ann a very happy 15th birthday.......and i hope u get gold with honours for SYF this year....although I still blame the stupid commitee for having it on ur bday......

Also,happy belated bday to Jing Jun whose bday was ytd.......

Cheers.......

2005-04-04T20:57:00.000-07:00

Sorry havent blog for a long time.......dun seem to be able to cos of some prob...

Anyway.....gd news here and there recently.....Liverpool won....Yay!......Everton lost...Yay!.....that means there is only a pt diff now.....muahahaha....lousy blue-noses.....even though alot of Liverpool fans in Singapore dun hate you as much as the manure....I hate you losers to the core.......You guys can go eat crap....

Hmm.......sad news is that Pope John Paul II has passed away......even though I am not a Catholic.....it is still sad to see one of the most influential pple pass away...he was so....so....impt in a way that he helped get rid of Communism....God Bless his soul......

Thats prob it..........will try to blog again.......soon........

2005-04-02T18:17:00.000-08:00

Heez.......had a boring day today........can't believe its so dull.......no one online....today only talk to boi,ronald and yh lo.....sianz........

Anyway.....rained like hell today.....so defo cannot go play soccer liao......shit weather.......nothing seems to be going my way recently......

Shld end my post here.....nth else to blog abt anyway....

Btw......even though Im not a Catholic......I do hope that Pope John Paul II does recover soon...God Bless

2005-03-30T20:05:00.000-08:00

Blogging today....

Hmm.......had a rather normal day.....quite boring.....esp. after recess......dunno why during History and Chinese felt like slping.....i haven't felt sleepy once this year for history....

Anyway after that,stayed back for Media Club........but again,there wasn't any meeting!Wah lao....make me and Ronald stay back for nth......Kao......at this rate ar,Media Club gonna die manz.......our first publication hasn't even been released yet lehz.......haiz......

So left school,came home and spent the whole afternoon slacking...gonna revise my work later..

Ciaoz.....

2005-03-29T18:06:00.000-08:00

Yoz.......back to blog after slightly more than a week of absence.......will keep this post short....

All in all......had a usual day......crap arnd with ronald and luke today......didnt talk much with boi,adi and bryan......now benedict and I have become much closer friends.....prob due to the fact we sit next to each other.......

Supposed to go for history remedial today.....but had to leave school for my dental appt......so had to miss the remedial......stupid lo.....my appt time was 1445......in the end waited until 1520 lo.......waste my time....luckily i had a gd book with me.....

After that came home rest and play computer.......tonight gonna start revising liao.....Oh and Andrea's bday coming up.......anyone with suggestions on what to get a gd friend whom I've known for 5 yrs?

2005-03-21T22:40:00.000-08:00

Whoa!Still high man!!Liverpool won 2-1......is that skill or what?!considering how miserly everton's defence have been this season.......kudos to Nigel Martyn......brillant this season....no doubts abt that......

Anyway.....Gerrard and Garcia scored early in the first half before Cahill pulled one back in the 85th minute....so today was so happy when i got to school...except for a stupid bad cough and right shoulder injury that kept bugging me the whole day....Bryan Jeffrey Tan.....I blame you for passing to me your stupid cough.....

So after school bought Newpaper to see more abt my beloved merseyside based football club....saw reports abt injuries hitting Liverpool.....

I wanna stress one thing first: I HATE ALL EVERTONIANS!!!!
You bloody idiots injured Warnock,Mori and Hamann to the extent that they had to be replaced in the first half!WTH!Not to mention that stupid tackles from pple like Hibbert caused Garcia and Riise to play through injury.......idiots!all of you shld be banned from playing soccer ever again!!!!But at least we won......

Oh btw.......Baros.......you can jolly well leave for Barca if you want......even though u played real hard during the derby......you messed up everything by getting yourself sent off!What the hell were you thinking?!How could you be our Number 1 striker?!No brains!!!Idiot!Now you've got a 3 match ban and with Sinama,Cisse and Mellor out for close to the whole season..we only have Morientes left but he's injured too!!!You stupid git!Get out of Liverpool asap you lousy Czech.......

Great goal by Gerrard and Garcia....beautiful shot by Mori to make Martyn palm the ball against the crossbar and allow Garcia to nip in and head in the goal......Great freekick too Stevie....

To end my post today I have one thing to say: UP YOURS EVERTONIANS!

2005-03-18T20:53:00.000-08:00

Hmmm........went out today........finally met up with Brooks,Benedict(pple in StGabs...pls do not mistake him for another Benedict that is in 3E6),Shermin and Jaslyn.....very long time nv see them liao...hmm....nv see Shermin since p3 i think...hmm.....cant remember when i last saw Jas though......last saw Benedict in p5.....and Brooks,I last saw in....p6?....yea.....think so.....haiz.....all of them 1 by 1 leave me that time......only one left......

Anyway.....first we met up outside BCC.....now renamed Friendship Cristian Centre or sth liddat lar....very near my house...met there......supposed to meet at 1130....but Benedict didnt tell Shermin.....so I guess she was there since 1030....then Benedict called me......ask me go down earlier.....cos he bored waiting there......so go early lo..then sit there.....wait for Brooks and Jaslyn.....wait and wait until 1135.....Brooks arrived....then continued waiting for Jaslyn...finally she reach and we all went in to see the centre.....

Nv really change much....looks the same....but nowadays so little intake....dunno whether can survive.....so caught up with Uncle Richard....talk awhile...then went to explore the centre....rooms and toilets all still there......brings back alot of gd memories......had a lot of fun there last time....met pple like JinJun....and so many friends....
Lol........today got this small kid...was already there before i left after p6......keep disturbing Benedict...that kid really kiam par sia.....Ben feel like whacking him up....cant believe I managed to survive 1 year with that fellow.....
Hmmm.......also found out abt Josiah,Jeremiah and Jedidah.....Josiah in poly liao lo..Temasek Poly.....taking up dunno what course....then Jeremiah in sec4 lo.....had some fun times back in 2002 with him.....keep talking crap back then.....then Jedidah....so smart sia...did so well for her PSLE.....24sth......go cedar....not bad.....truly an ATS student......

K so we left arnd 1230?....and went to Cineleisure.....bought tickets for Spongebob the movie.....okok i noe..its damn lame......but heys....Shermin,Brooks,Jaslyn and I had already watched Hitch,Benedict already caught Lemony Snicket's A Series of Unfortunate Events and Jaslyn didnt want to watch Boogeyman.......so it was either Spongebob or Robots.....no choice.....watching walking and talking sponge,starfish,crab and fish is better then watching robots....besides......Jas wanted to watch it...so give in lo...but it was very funny lar...if u can be childish for that 1 hr+.......can go watch liao.....but I saw Jaslyn really enjoy it......saw her smile throughout the whole movie.......

Before watching,we actually went Dhoby Ghaut MRT.....Brooks wanted to play arcade....so go.....then he and Benedict played some stupid ninja game...all of us just kept laughing the whole time......so after that....walked arnd lo.....then they played some Japanese game.....Jaslyn pro sia.....win liao siao liddat......Benedict poor thing......keep losing....then had to keep tapping...Lol.....After that played Time Crisis 2......Brooks and Benedict went first.....not bad sia....then Jas took over Brooks....again.....she very pro.....

After that left Dhoby Ghaut and went to back to Cineleisure.....catch the movie....just as we were going in...who do I spot?Boi,Ronald,Adi and Bryan.......but forgot abt them and went to watch........came out of the theatre and who do I see?Ronald,Bryan and Boi...but i was with Benedict,Brooks,Shermin and Jaslyn.....then Shermin left first..folled by me and Jaslyn.....but I walked with Benedict and Brooks while Jaslyn left minutes earlier.....ended up on the same train.....
Then got off and walked together with Jaslyn for awhile before meeting my mom....exchanged HP numbers.....and she left for home......

So I came back.....and am blogging.........Had a gd day today.....

2005-03-11T15:28:00.000-08:00

Finally!!!It's the end of term 1.......so fast.......seems like only yesterday I met my new classmates.....pple like Kah Meng and Harrison who live near me....pple like Charles whom I have known since sec1 but were nv same class....pple like Shawn and Aloysius who I have nv known....but got to become close friends with them.....pple like Arrun who is a Liverpool fan like me........but most of all,I'm still in the same class as some gd friends......Boi,Yilong,Sanmugan,K.Chia and Adi have followed me through to 3E6......

Well.......had my chem paper today......wasnt that bad....shld be able to pass....also got my English marks back.....24/35......not really happy abt it though.....its rather low....I know that alot of pple nv pass...so I guess I shld be happy abt it........

Today had a boring day....wasnt feeling well.....had a headache early in the morning...had a slight fever last night....even though only Nic and yh knew abt it.....didnt tell anyone else......but feeling much better.....and will take the holidays to try and recuperate....but alot of holiday hw lor.....3 english hw,88 PoA questions,Maths SA revision paper....so many......buay tahan sia........

Anyway saw some stuff on friendster and my email....decided to do it here:

Reports say that when you are in love,you will show these symptons.....
10. Time is an eternity when you're without them----Yes
9. Time stops when you're with them--Never experienced it
8. The thought of them makes you shiver--Why shld it?
7. The sound of them makes you smile--Yes
6. When seeing them, you can't see anything else--Yes
5. You start to listen to happy love songs--Spooky but yes
4. You actually enjoy happy love songs--Yes
3. The smell of them makes you see fireworks--Never experienced it
2. You find yourself smiling constantly--Yes
1. You'd do anything, even die, for them--Yes

There is also this thing:
1. What book are you reading? The English Teacher
2. What's your fav board game? Scrabble
3. Fav magazine? Official Liverpool FC Mag
4. Wosrt feeling in the world? Knowing that she has someone else in her heart
5. First thing you think abt in the morning? Huh?....must wake up already ar?
6. Fav colour? Blue,Black and Red(only cos of LFC)
7. What is most impt in your life? My family and friends and HER
8. Fav food? Er...my mom's fried rice and my dad's bak ku teh
9. Storms--Cool or Scary? Kinda cool actually......
10. Ever been in love? Yea....
11. Fav movie? Scary Movie 1,2 and 3.....
12. What's you fav number(s)? 10,5,20,36
13. Fav sport? Soccer
14. If I could built a house anywhere in the world,where? Bishan,Singapore
15. Comedy or Horror? Comedy
16. Fav time of the day? End of school
17. The last CD you bought? Ocean Avenue by Yellowcard
18. What time do you wake up in the mornings? 5.30 A.M.
19. What makes you angry? When pple piss me off
20. If you had 1 super power,what would it be? Mind-reading
21. Which do you prefer--Sushi or hamburgers? Sushi
22. What is your fav cartoon? Simpsons
23. If you could have a vacation anywhere in the world,where would it be? anywhere as long as she is there with me
24. Do you have pets? Yea.....guppies......