Thursday, March 09, 2006
I've lost faith in everything.
My life.My studies.My love.Soccer.My friends.
Don't get me wrong.I like my friends and I don't think there's anything wrong.Just that....I've lost faith in them.Somehow I feel they will never understand what I'm going through.They may be going through worse things than me but still...I've lost the belief that friends will be there for me when I need them the most.It feels go to be alone sometimes.Cut off from everyone.Wish I could do that.But I know I can't.But still...I think Mr Tay was right.....We all need to learn to be "lone wolf" this year.Don't be too close to your friends at this crucial point in time.
I've lost faith in my studies....Oh how the mighty have fallen.I used to do well in my Lit.But now?I just scraped a 14/25 for my test recently..I lost my faith...just like that.I feel like Im never going to achieve my dreams..I wanna go into football coaching.Thats my dream job...May suck to many...But that is what I want to do.I love soccer.But now,I've lost my faith in that too.I don't feel that same passion anymore.The passion to win and play well.I simply don't care anymore..
I really never thought this day would have come....when I stop my life at this point in time...where I stop moving on..My life stops here....mentally.Physically I will go on.It will just be a facade.Nothing more...Nothing under the exterior lie of happiness and joyThe person inside me is dead.
Fare thee well good world.
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|10:26 PM|
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